[Albert21]

I am a very nice social person. I am very outgoing. I work, I study, I write, I draw and I try out new things every day! About 1 month ago I broke up with my girlfriend and since then my life became harder. I am working out now, I write, I try to read, I try to go to Parties, I even got a lot of hours at work. But everytime I get alone I start thinking about her. She was my most serious relation ship. We dated for 8 months and we were going to get married. She was pregnant and when she left me she was 12 weeks pregnant with our daughter Jasmin. Now she isnt pregnant and I have no idea what she has done with the baby. But she is not pregnant anymore So after we broke up I became very selfish and emotionally unstable. I get severe chest pain. I can not fall asleep. I do not love her anymore and I wish I could some how erase her from my memory and finally move on! What should I do!? On the top of that I get pressured from everywhere right now! grrr So yeah, thats my problem pretty much! I am lost and I dont know If I should trust someone or just be by MYSELF!!!

[bipolar_bear]

I am so sorry about your girlfriend and your baby. That must be so hard for you. Everyone deals with loss in different ways. And each relationship will be different. I hate to see you lose out on further relationships because of your hurt but hurt can happen with relationships. Life can be very lonely without people to share it with.

Healing from loss can be difficult to work through. Sometimes talking about it can help either with friends, here or even finding someone professional. It is truly a personal decision on what fits you best. Please keep posting here if it helps.

Welcome to PC.

BB

[nowheretorun]

hi Albert ..

it is very sad about the child

i can understand your pain and the feelings of disconnection you are having... without question trust in others is good to rebuild, but understandably hard for you right now..

i would take some time and evaluate my own personal goals in life right now... like it or not, you are a single person again...

take it easy on others as you view the world around you and if you can, try to remember that life choices put pressure on us all...

it is not a happy place where you are now, but you can get there...

look for your own personal strength now... if it is waning some, that too is understandable... these are some hard blows to take...

try to remember that the things that happen as we move on in our life path have the ability to make us more compassionate and caring even tho we may want to look for shelter for a time and heal... nothing wrong with it.. we all need to do it...

in time you can feel love again, but it will take some growing and understanding..

the things that happen to us are not always deserved or fair... but by rising above the pain, we will become stronger and better equipped to help others on their journey and the cycle of continuing love can grow...

sending my best hope for you... post here at PC as often as you need to.. it is a very good way to unload those feelings and eventually sort it out...

[trippinmickey]

Thats enough to mess with anyones head.You need to find out whats going . Your head most be spinning call her up and ask her or have a friend call if you dont wont to.

[Albert21]

i tryed calling her, but she always flipped out! now she is not even the type of girl that I want to spend the rest of my life with. She does drugs, drinks everyday and cuts her self.

[Albert21]

It is also sad that she became evil again. She is skiptofrenic