I don't think this'll trigger, just talks about feeling sad and lonely and stuff.

I've got people in my house but I still feel lonely

I want to yell again and rip my hair out in frustration, but no one would hear me. I feel like things are so obvious how I feel and sometimes I just want someone to go, "Hey Vince, you alright? Want to talk?". I feel like I need to strap a sign around me with a sad face on it.

But then I think about it and I'm probably not worth the effort of talking to. I never get better. I only get worse. I just want people to understand and people don't. I feel like no matter how hurt I am no one will ever notice. It's my fault- I know I put up a front.

Or maybe I don't even know what I want. I want to talk to someone but they'll judge and I'm a waste of time. And then people think they understand, tell me what to do and what not to do, but they don't get it. I can't just "do" something. I can't just act how I should.

Sorry to post here again. Just feeling down tonight Hurt and lonely. Hope everyone else is well.

[pegasus]

I do understand that feeling for sure.

(((((((((((( Griffe ))))))))))))))

[x_BabyG_x]

(((((((((((( Griffe ))))))))))))))

I know how ya feel, its one of the most awful feelings in the world feeling alone... If you feel like talking, then talk to us all here... because we're all going through it ourselves, we're the nearest thing to understanding.

Just try and keep your mind off things just for tonight... hope you feel better soon

babyg xxx

[onlymedid]

I really understand what you are saying. I felt that way when I was living with my Aunt, cousin and second cousins. It was so hard because you don't want to say "I NEED HELP. TALK TO ME", but at the same time you don't just want to sit back and be miserable either. If that makes sense.
I am here if you ever need to talk.



BJ

[RozG]

((((((((Griffe))))))))

That makes perfect sense BJ... I just feel like yelling LISTEN TO ME, I WANT TO TALK TO YOU, but I'm scared of asking or starting to ask. I just want people to talk to me sometimes. But I'm scared of being the person to start talking

[x_BabyG_x]

Just go for it anyways, what have you to lose??

xxx

I don't want to come across as a whiner though, and I'm scared I become a burden when I drag people down if I make them listen and talk to me.

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((( Griffe ))))))))))))))

(((((((((Griffe )))))))))))))))))))))))))))|
you matter
I hope you are ok
You know i care
we all need to know ppl care
alone is not a good feeling

[gimmeice]

((((((((((Griffe)))))))))))))

[nowheretorun]

hey Griffe.... hang tuff.... its the cycle imo.... in a day or two, maybe it'll change for you i hope.. look on the bright side, even tho its hard right now... there good stuff.. you know it.. it'll change.... you feel confident again....

everything passes Griffe... even the good times, so we really gotta enjoy those when we get them.... keep posting if it helps...

[Justgiving]

People who have never suffered from depression will never know how really a depressed person can feel.

With life that goes so fast and with the stress it brings sometime, people can't feel if another person is miserable, unless they are miserable themselves and they can feel it in others.

If we put a front, then people will not know how much we need them, unless we say it. They can't guess.

If we don't take the chance then we will never know if someone is willing to give us a hand.

We might get hurt or we might get compassion.

Here we are listening to you, that's for sure, because we do understand.

Take good care!

[Christina86]

((((((((((((Vince))))))))))))))))

I feel like that way a lot of the time too... I think a lot of people here understand the "aloneness".

It isn't your fault for putting up a front... we all do it, it protects us from rejection and being hurt. It's not a bad thing necessarily...

And you are NOT a waste of time, not at all.

[I_WMD]

Why not go with what is good !!! Heck ,,, ya not writing everything backwards lately .

[Doh2007]

Hey Vince, you alright? Want to talk?

We care. We really do.

[Pseudonym]

We all think it's SO obvious that we're hurting, and how could anyone miss it. Well, they have their own lives and can miss it, even those close to us. There's no shame in asking if they've got a minute, or try asking THEM if they're alright and want to talk. Then you get a twofer.

[Abby]

"I want to yell again and rip my hair out in frustration, but no one would hear me. I feel like things are so obvious how I feel and sometimes I just want someone to go, "Hey Vince, you alright? Want to talk?". I feel like I need to strap a sign around me with a sad face on it."

Woah - i said exactly the same thing about 6 months ago.....exactly. I kept having a friend online who knew how i felt (because its easier talking online) telling me to not try and win an emmy with my acting and tell people. But i honestly felt i was! I told my counsellor that i felt i had 2 weeks to live.....what does she do, says i might benefit from a low mood group! I would hint massively at my parents, plus be crying on the phone pretty much all the time but they still didn't get it. The day before i gave up and decided to go to hospital i felt like i was screaming for help but noone was hearing me, and i got to the point where i no longer felt i should tell anyone else. I mean how hard is it to see someone needs help if they're talking around bad subjects?!
Then that day i had a choice, and i decided to tell one more person but this time explicitly how i felt. And i was blessed with being taken to hospital where i desperately needed to go at the time.
My parents always say that i'm getting better at talking but still not great but personally i didn't feel i could make it anymore clear.

Sorry that was all about me, i just want you to know that you aren't alone in having those feelings.

take care

[Albert21]

hey. You know I feel exacly the same way I do! your friends do care a little. but for the most time they have no idea how you feel. what i try to do is forget about the feeling and try to brain wash myself that there is hope, there is better life and better SHE. dont think about the past. think about the future. funny i post this reply 2 second after i posted exactly same thing what you said. See, there is purpose and there is a better life. We all could help each other out!

Thanks everyone. Wish I could say I was in a better mood today I spent a while this afternoon typing up a really long rant but then I feel guilty for whining and deleted it.

And I know tomorrow won't be better. Sorry to be negative but whenever I'm positive, it never turns out well.