depressed

Hi im dave im been really depressed the past few months and i hate it, im 18 going to college in the fall. well first off my parents always fight i cant stand it it, after i graduated HS, barely graduationg. i lost all my friends after i graduated, i didnt get into any good colleges i feel like i failed. i met this girl last year who i really liked and i didnt have the courage to ask her out and now she is leaving for college soon, she is all i can think of and makes me happy but yet i still feel sad knowing i blew my chance with her. i feel my emotions are getting to me lately i cried almost everyday now and feel alone and cant stop thinking about this girl,she is so smart i feel like she is out of my league and its killing me inside. i feel like my life is a big failure this is wierd to me because i used to be happy but the past year has been rough i dont know what to do anymore thats why im on this forum, i would never kill myself or anything because im optomistic but these feelings im having are getting to me. im alone and dont know what to do help

lostguy-

hi breakthehabit...

it can feel very overwhelming at times... posting here and reaching for help is a good move on your part... at 18 you still have many options... its very painful to not have what you want very much, even need.. the girl may represent comfort and peace and happiness for you, and when down, anything which brings that prospect to life is appealing...

there are ways to acquire the feelings of happiness and comfort and peace... it is absolutely great to have a caring friend help you along the way....

take a little time and evaluate how it feels inside and imagine what objects or people outside fit with your image of healthy living...

best to you always

((((((((((((( breakthehabit )))))))))))))))