Nothing Helps

Nothing helps this anymore.
The more I try the more I fail.
The meds aren't working, so I quit them for good.
My moods are crazy as hell, but who really cares because I really don't anymore. The therapists basically has threw her hands up, because I can not afford the right meds, so it is my fault that I can not afford the correct meds, so yeah go ahead and throw your hands up, you never were good anyway. You always made me feel like I was less of a person because I have this crazy life. Who f* cares, I don't. So who cares if I cut, or starve myself or exercise my *** off. That is the only way I have of getting the pain out.

Sorry I am venting and need to get this out.

(((purplebutterfly)))))))) it really hurts sometimes..

it hurts bad

(((purple)))) right here with you

Purplebutterfly,
you were right to vent, that's what this place is for, there are a lot of good folk here whose hearts will go out to you for they will understand where you're coming from .....

it just worries me that your response is "...Who cares? I don't".
I may be wrong here, purplebutterfly, so please don't be angry with me if I politely disagree. I say that because you said:."...it's the only way I have of getting the pain out..." There's another way,(which you've done) i.e. sharing it on here. THAT'S got to be good.

My view: stuff the bloody therapist if that's how incompetent she is. She's clearly of no benefit to you, so forget her and all her works. My therapist got rid of me because I wasn't able to respond "properly" (!!)
If it helps, feel free to pm me on this site, or you can e-mail me at :
john.ryan4@virgin.net
"So who cares" you ask: everyone on this site hearing your story, would care very much about you. I care. I care enough to spend time writing this, so come on, take a big hug from me, specially for you exclusively ........ Hope my humble contribution helps some little bit. Please come back and keep us posted, promise?

((((((((((((((( purplebutterfly ))))))))))))))

Thanks Everyone for listening.

((((((((((((((((( purplebutterfly ))))))))))))))))

Im done, I can not take it anymore.

No great words of wisdom, purplebutterfly, but we're here for you. Vent all you want. It's time to find better Rx.

Cooling it -- just "not trying" so hard any more -- sometimes does a lot of good. I hope it does for you.

We will still like you.

(((((purplebutterfly))))

Some companies (Phizer and Astra-Seneca) offer free meds to those who cannot afford. Just life the ads say. If you need those meds check it out, the worst they can say is no, and you are there anyway.

Amen. I know exactly how you feel, whether you wanna believe it or not.

You are not a failure, by trying means you're successful! You need to find yourself a new theropist, one that will help you and will give you samples of medications. Mine does, since I've been out of a job and my husband has been laid off, they try to help with meds. My counselor also told me that fish oil tabs help with moods.

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A = adorable
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R = Real Friend to those who come near
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You are worth wild and remember you have friends here.

I care a lot for you.