[Invisible_Star]

I found this site and decided that since I'm not ready to talk to a counselor, I would talk on here.

I am a recovering self-mutilator after four years of injuring myself. I went 9 months without a cut until now. But suddenly all of those old feelings are coming back. The emptiness, the panic, and the loneliness. I just don't know what to do anymore.

I'm so stressed out that it seems like any little thing can set me off and make me get that feeling like I have to hurt myself... I just need some support.

It's a never-ending battle
That takes place everyday
But when I'm asked about the pain
I'm left with nothing to say
Outside I am so happy
Giggling, laughing, and free
But inside there are demons
That just won't let me be
So I hide among the shadows
Searching hoping to find
A place where I can get some help
A place to ease my mind
But after an eternity of searching
Through the blackness of my soul
I am left farther, not closer
To finally reaching my goal
So I continue to cry
And I continue to bleed
So many scars left
For all the world to see
And still I hide among the shadows
Searching, hoping to find
A place where I can get some help
And finally ease my troubled mind.

[downsolong]

Invisible_Star,

Welcome. I'm sure you'll find people who can relate to your struggles here as I have for mine. I'm figuring out nearly everything else as I go being pretty new, but I think you'll find it warm, and caring. I have.

Downsolong

[Ozze]

Hey Invisible Star,
Glad to have you here. It's a good site and the people are cool too, so you'll find a lot of people here willing to help.
Cheers

[SS8282]

Welcome, Star. Like everyone else said - this is a good place to be, with wonderful people. The support here is amazing.

The time you went without hurting yourself was great, and sometimes bad feelings/thoughts do come back. Posting here and venting (like you did) can help.

Please take care of yourself, you matter.

[Nerak]

Welcome Star - this is a wonderful place and you will find alot of support. Glad you found us.

:-)

[(JD)]

welcome invisible star! Yes, a good place to vent. Also, we accept whining! (But if we whine about the exact same thing all the time, our friendly members will help us pull up by the boot straps and go on!)