I have been in such a depression lately. I could name a million things going on but its not worth the space of typing it. This weekend i wasted all the time i should have been studying being destructive. The hours just flew by from 4pm to 2am!! I couldnt stop. If i stopped. I knew i'd cry. What is wrong with me?? Today i am so spaced out that i dont feel real. I don't feel anything.

I think im sad cuz i may not see my family for thanksgiving. Part of it is by choice. Part not my choice. Long story. There is just so much self destruction inside me that maybe something has turned off so it will subside for a while. Its just wierd not feeling me. one thing that helps is talkin to ppl... ppl help me feel real... im rambling now.

[SweetCrusader]

This is called dissocation and it's a response to stress. It's your mind's way of coping with pain. Feeling unreal or numb is a way of coping.

I hope things work out for you better soon. Have you talked to your old T yet?

*hugs* if you want 'em
Angela

[silver_queen]

Wow is it really, crusader? When I was very depressed earlier on in the year I felt numb all the time, it scared me...

[Wants2Fly]

Hello -- I have had that bad feeling of dissociation, too. It's scarey. Hope you will talk with a T, new or old, and a doc who can prescribe medications. I tried for year to find one that worked. And I've also found that I have to get onto a medication very, very slowly. And that they can take a long time to reach full potency.

Holidays alone can be bad. Hope you'll keep coming back here.

(((((((esthersvirtue))))))))))))

[SweetCrusader]

Yes it really is. Dissociation is VERY misunderstood. People think that it's some strange or unusual thing, but it's not. It's ajust a way of coping. And actually, everyone dissociates. Daydreaming, for instance, is a type of dissociation. There are much more severe forms, of course, and then you get into dissociative disorders. But this is just an example of one type of dissociation that ethersvirtue has used to cope with her pain.

I hope that info helps. If anyone wants to know more about dissociation, get in touch with me. I'm too tired to think anymore tonight! lol!

Angela

[bren]

WOW!!! I came here for the first time today, and yet you took the words out of my mouth. I have not felt real for a very long time. I seem to be living my life in a daze, never knowing when or where my next crash will be. <font color="brown"> </font>

awwwwww im sorry, Bren. Welcome to the forum. Feel free to post anytime you feel comfortable