I spoke to my wonderful friend Nina today(((((((((((daynnight))))))))))))) and told her i was feeling crappy but didn't want to post that because of letting people down after all the positive stuffi'd posted just lately. So she said i'd suffer because of not getting my feelings down. I thought about it and honesty is the best policy, so i am going to tellyou how i feel, maybe getting it out will help. i know it's just a phase andi will be ok soon.

I feel enclosed, trapped, miserable, fed up, used, tired andall i want to do is sleep right now.

I amsick of my house being used like a hotel. Iam sick of my daughter thinking she knows best. I am sick of being taxi to people, i don't mind if they'd appreciate it (talking bout my son more than anyone) he is all nice and lovey dovey when he wantssomething, but if i ask him to do a small job or his dad wants a cup of tea anyone would think we've asked him to move a mountain or something. Yes i know he is a teen .... i know it is usual behaviour etc etc I'm just not coping very well right now. I feel so depressed for the first timein ages. I have no get up and go, no interest in anything,money is an issue etc. I just needed to get this out i suppose. I am missing my grandad who died when i was 16. Missing having a mother who givesa %#@&#! and a father come to that. I feel like going away and never coming back everright now. Yet i have nothing to moan about compared to so many.

i feel angry too. My t says anger and aggressiveness comes from hurting. I just give up today, maybe tomorrow will be better

GGGGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

now i need to do that for real, Jin

[gimmeice]

((((((((((( jinnyann )))))))))))))))))))
I am sorry that you are feeling down right now, I hope it passes soon. Please take good care of yourself.

[Der_Sohn_des_Leides]

((((((jinnyann))))))

You help a lot of people out on PC; I think it's about time to be your own friend.

You're not letting anyone down by admitting that you too have feelings. *gasp*
In the end, we're all human, and the fact that we're all suffering, we all hurt at certain points in our lives, just makes the human connection that much stronger in my opinion.

Do something good for yourself; get out of the house and get some "me-time" away from everyone else. You deserve it!

Hope things start looking brighter soon!

Take care,



J

((((((((((((((DSDL)))))))))))))))

Sorry my brain can't ever remember your full name thankyou so much, your kind words mean so much, i tend to withdraw, i have been upstairs all day avoiding the teens lol ... take care my friend and thankyou so much for caring. many
hugs to you, Jinny xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

((((( Jinny )))))


You are a wonderful person and never feel like you can't post for fear of bringing others down. You do so much for everyone else.

When you can't walk anymore, crawl, and when you can't crawl anymore, find someone else to carry you, and here on PC everyone would be happy to lift a friend like you up in a time of need

Take care.

((((((((((((((((Griffe)))))))))

love you hon, thankyou so much, i really appreciate all the hugs today.....love Kerry xoxoxoxoxoxo

[Fuzzybear]

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[MyBestKids2]

(((jinnyann)))

Here's to hoping tomorrow is better! Please know that we all care about you, and Ninas' words are very wise. Talk, talk, talk....


Dee

[altonwoodsdrphil]

Bless your heart! If I could I'd take you out for a little "jinnyann" time! you know, just the usual retail therapy and cusine pampering that you deserve, we could talk about ways for you to set some new boundries with people, and take a look at re-igniting your sense of purpouse and meaning in life...you're not just an asscessory to other people! over cherry cheescake and coffee I'd reccomend T.D. Jakes book "repositioning yourself" it's wonderfully empowering! they say that it's the thought that counts...feel any better?

[nightbird]

(((Kerry)))

You are my friend. You are an incredibly cool, honest, caring, supportive and delightful and beautiful (inside and out) person. I am so glad I met you!

We have to let go of the hard stuff, as much as we prefer not to say the things out loud that bring us down, we have to, so it doesn't get too hairy - especially when and where we do not want it to - and by doing this, we make room for more easy stuff, you know?

I didn't always practice this myself. I'm working on it now. It bites me in the bum if I don't.

You deserve every good thing. You are a joy - and part of keeping that joy is recycling the junk that weighs us down.

I'm so glad you posted!!!!! When you help yourself, you help me (and others).
Thanks daynnight for encouraging Jinnyann!

peace and love,
night