Bad Week

Oh what a bad week its been! Fighting wih my husband everyday im so tired of it. Working alot of extra and im soo tired. If im not working im home stuck in the house all the time cleaning cause I do everything by myself... I dont know how much I can take anymore im really feeling like I want it all to end and be over with. I sometimes think my kids would be better off without me cause who wants to grow up with a depressed mommy all the time.......

Talk to a counsellor, Black Tears.

A social worker can help too.

Maybe you and your hubby need a break from fighting, so someone might want to rise up and be the hero for the both of you and refrain from the arguing, as hard as that might be with emotions involved until things calm down, at least.

I know it's hard to pull away, but you could start saying positive things to your husband instead of replying in usual way during a confrontation.

You can try your hardest to make him feel better about himself, as it sounds like the gift you will receive back from your own act of giving this.

Also, you could rent movie that he would like also, make some popcorn, leave the mess alone, and sit close and become friends again.

All is not lost. It's just tiring during these bumpy patches.

You will make it right somehow, even if you need to call .merrymaids' to clean for you ... maybe if he sees that people get paid to clean a house because it is actually a real job - then he might value the money for his family and start pitching in.

Either way, you might benefit from seeing someone because you are unhappy and that is the real concern, isn't it?

I'm sorry you feel so sad. It can be very scary too. Seek some relief for the depression either thru your MD. and get a referral for a good counselor, okay.

It will get better. It will turn out alright. You will be alright.

Love,
Night

hang in there Black Tears.. dont give up on the idea that it can get better.... it sounds very hard right now and i wish i could tell you what to do to make the immediate situation better... careful patience with yourself really matters so you'll be able to make the right decisions at the right times...

i can feel your stress and frustration and i can empathize to the feelings of helplessness and despair.. just try and hold onto an idea of better things to come.. something simple... can you go to an area where you can have complete peace for awhile? just do some breathing and look at some scenery for a bit and enjoy a few good things for a bit... a butterfly or the way a flower blows in the wind... let some peaceful thoughts into your mind for a bit to remind yourself of the good feelings that are still out there and can be yours for awhile...

wishing the best for you...