Bad week

Okay, so I was raped when I was 17, and all this last week I've been having nightmares about it every night. I wake up so tired, and every time I think about it, I just feel so gross, so I go and take a shower. It's been really distracting on top of school and work, and I've been feeling so depressed. It's hard to get the motivation to do everything I need to do every day. Most of the time I feel like I should just drink heavily, so maybe I could stop caring so much, and maybe get some sleep. I haven't actually been drinking, I've just been thinking about it a lot. I just don't know what to do with myself!

i am sorry that you had that happen to you... i understand how your feeling if that helps... are you in t? if not the local rape crisis center can help you find one... usually they will see you for about 10 visits and then refer you to someone... i find that if i journal it... it helps ... drinking might help in the short term... but over all it won't... take gentle care...lyn

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Thanks a bunch... I got on valproic acid for my bipolar disorder, and I've been sleeping a lot better. Still thinking about it a lot... I saw online today there is a lot of activism work for survivors of rape at the University of Washington, I bet it would help to go volunteer with them.