[sarahxxkristine]

i'm perfectly fine during the day...no bad thoughts, no reoccuring thoughts either...im fine...but the minute i lay my head down to sleep and i close my eyes, the thoughts begin
firstly for about quite a few months now i have closed my eyes and have felt myself putting a gun under my chin and releasing the trigger. but its not like i acutally kill myself....and the thought just keeps going and going over and over....it makes me wanna just open my eyes, which i do.
then thers the thought of cutting myself (which ive never done before) i imagine myself doing it...and cant stop thinking about it....i finally, the other night, had to text my friend and tell her what was going on just to get it out of my head....
im not sure what to do or say at this point...these thoughts shouldnt be happening nor plaguing my dreams

-sarah, i suppose i just need advice at this point

[Clandestine]

That happens to me A LOT. Even in the day, I still get to think, but usually my thoughts get worse at night when I'm about to sleep. I suggest you go watch a movie/TV/DVD til you fall asleep, or listen to music to soothe your thoughts. I just watch something until I fall asleep so as not to think much about stupid and traumatic thoughts.

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[Cmara]

Although my nighttime thoughts are not of the violent nature......they did make it impossible to fall asleep. I cannot fall asleep without the tv on to distract me. It got to the point where I did fall asleep eventually, but the sleep didn't last long. Now, I am taking Trazadone before I go to bed, and it is working well. It helps me fall asleep even when the nonstop racing thoughts are going on.

[sarahxxkristine]

Thank you for answering, ya i think i may have to distract myself til i go to sleep, mind u, i dont go to sleep until im extremely tired...sometimes i stay up til 2 or 3 in the morning just because im not tired enough to go to bed...but i just want these thoughts to stop.....they become too real and make going to sleep a chore.
-sarah
p.s. thank you again

[DOWNINNATICK]

Sarahxxkristine;

I also have thoughts and dreams like that, I have to leave the tv on to something none violent or too noise, but it helps me to take my mind off of them so I can sleep. I also try to picture myself on a desserted island, near the water just relaxing, listening to the water, watch birds or other animals, sometimes that helps. You did great calling someone to help you, maybe you can release the pain into a dairy, which is another way to release the feeling it you can't call anyone.

Good luck, pleasant dreams and sweet thoughts!