broken heart-somethings wrong with me

I can't get my old highschool teacher out of my head. it's been almost two years since I've left highschool and I now have a wonderful bf whom I'm very much in love with. Even though I'm in love with him, I still can't get over my crush on my science teacher. I was obsessed with him in highschool and I dunno he was almost like a father figure. I wanted to be like him. In highschool I had a break down in grade ten because I had so many family problems and friend problems. I had no one to turn to. I wrote my teacher an email because I felt I could talk to him even though hhardly knw me personally. When he got my second email he pulled me out of math class and took me to his science class to talk to me. He said I had changed a lot since grade eight and that I was not the same confident girl he once knew. I told him I was depressed and upset. I said I fellt like I hadn't accomplished anything and tht I wasn't meeting my full potential. I was an a and b student. but I wanted to win awards and be something I guess. When I got home that same day my mom told me he had called her. From that moment on I've been insecure about my feelings and I think I'm weird. I've always had crushes on teachers even in elementary school. It's not like my father abused me. I guess becuase my dad is so quiet and lets my mom take charge is that I'm trying to find man in my life who can take charge....I dunno...does anyone know why I feel these things?

Nothing wrong with you in my opinion! Sure, some attachments to people aren't healthy... but it sounds like you were helped through a hard spot just by his being there, and that's not a bad thing. And yeah, I've noticed sometimes I can be attached/attracted to men in my life because my father has been "absent" in one way or another... so I'd say you're normal there too!

Have you talked this through with anyone before?

Hey myoasis89;

We all have crushes on a teacher or two, so there is nothing wrong there, and your feelings for you science teacher, maybe one of not love but just admire, where he was there to help you. Many kids find that they have one teacher in there life that they will never ever forget, and yours is the science teacher. Finding the right mate will just take time, you are still young and there is plenty of time to make sure you find the right one. So take care and don't worry.