*Trigger* When I"m Gone......

No one understands what I've been through,
Its like they don't see the same view as I do,
I rap so I can get through someones cap,
And hopefully someones skull,
My words are painfull and dull,
They say leave your therapist,
I'd like to knock them out with my fist,
She cares she's the only friend I got,
WHen I go to work the only thing in my mind is I got to go see her before I rot,
Days turn in to months now I"m drowsy and wanting to just drive straight and end it all,
I used to be able to stand tall,
Now I fall right down this tube,
Expecting to drive right through the guard rails,
Hopeing I don't suffer rather just instantly kill the pain,
Like it would matter what is my fame?
Hardly anyone even knows my name,
So I sit with her card lying in my hand,
Singing songs to it like I am a band,
Anyways screw it,
I"m gone......

Please help me

Hang in there. i hear you.

we hear u and we care.

tie a knot at the end of a rope and hang on tiet with boht hands

we've got the other end

bead

I have struggled with the desire to die many times in my life. But, I finally realized that it is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

Suicide is not a good solution and it will not do anything good. I know you are hurt and very angry and you do not think you can keep on, but you matter and you must not throw away the only life you have got.

As much as life has hurt you do you really want to leave all who know you with such pain and never-ending questions? Why did he do this? Is it my fault? Should I have seen this coming? Why..... Will the pain of this ever be over for us???

Suicide is selfish. I am speaking from my own experience. I had to realize that giving up and killing myself was the meanest thing I could do. It makes me like one of the ones who hurt me sooo deeply. Suicide is cruel and mean.

I care that you hurt and that you can't see anything good coming out of this time in your life. I do get that. But, looking back now on the side of the living I can say that all I suffered is being healed, bit by little bit. I still have tough times but life is good and I AM EXTREMELY GLAD I DID NOT DIE BY MY OWN HAND!

GET HELP NOW Do not ask some poor Highway Patrol Officer to assist you by cleaning up your suicide on the road. Don't ask Emergency Techs and Coroners to package up your remains. Don't ask your family to come and identify your body. That is too cruel.

My brother committed suicide by alcohol and I did have to go through the identification and my last memories of him are not good. It hurt me deeply . What did I do to deserve that from him? I will never know any answers because he took them with him in death.

(((((Every one)))))

I'm sorry if I triggered you <3 *hugs to all thanks*

PS wish me good luck

I hear you ((((((((Moonkin)))))))))) Don't give up

((((((moonkin)))))))

Do not quit.

If you need to, call the hospital, or your therapist, and express how down you feel ... just do not quit!

Talk it out ... write it out.

We are listening.

Peace and Comfort,
nightbird

xoxoxoxoxo

i hope you will find a way through your pain moonkin, you are trying.. i spent the longest time in depression, it was a slow ascent for me... now i can look back and see that the lowest lows only represented one end of the spectrum... on its opposite side is the highest high.. for me it has been a process of slowing and eventually stopping the roller coaster effects.... peace is central for me... peace can be acquired by calming fears and doubts... peace does not imply silly and pretend happiness.. peace promises a release from dis-satisfaction... from a point of peace one can choose either descending or ascending points, as well as what distance one may choose to travel in either direction.. inner peace gives us the method and the process we need to reach any chosen destination for ourselves...

(((moonkin)))

please listen to these wise people.they are so right!!!!!!
please do not give up.........but rather have hope in the light at the end of the tunnel because there really is one
we are here 4 u, hoping with u
sending u peaceful thoughts

beadlady