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Oct 06, 2008, 07:00 AM
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I'm posting in this forum way too often lately for myself
 To everyone else struggling out there...  I'm not very good at giving support when I'm feeling so bad.But I'm struggling... every time I post here I get mountains of great advice and support and I feel so so horrible that I'm still feeling so depressed. Today I'm on my own again... and yeh that's great 'cause my dad's not here. But, I feel so overwhelmed and just, I feel so depressed, my heart aches. I'm lonely... and I keep trying to push myself to go out and I will... I'm gonna force myself to do it. But, it's my boyfriend (or ex?) too. I want him to text me, phone me, get in touch with me and tell me that I mean something to him and he wants to be with me!  But he wont. I'm trying my hardest not to break and text him. We haven't spoken since Friday... but I was kept occupied at the weekend, so no matter how much it was hurting, it was easier to stop myself begging him to show any kind of emotion! But now, 'cause I'm on my own and have no distractions it's harder.I am so ******* useless!!!! I'm a waste of space and I don't deserve to be loved cause look at me! I'm just a mess and can't control myself! I DESERVE to feel like this!
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Oct 06, 2008, 07:56 AM
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 Those things you said about struggling to not call, email or text--I failed at this weekend. But I felt kind of good, too, because I identified my need (for communiction) and I stated it. Yes, it was probably pathetic and needy of me, but I also decided it was pathetic of me to sit and hope and feel worthless--now I can sit and feel worthless knowing that at least I expressed how I feel. I am so not good at being alone like you are doing, wanting a phone call or something to let you know you are meaningful. It hurts. I have zero advice for you on how to get over that feeling except to occupy your mind and body. Go windowshopping, get back into volunteeing, something. Only a hug to offer this time, sorry! 
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Oct 06, 2008, 08:14 AM
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Hugs from me to you....you are worth it and you DO NOT deserve this at all...I can understand how you may think these horrible things but it is just the depression tricking you and believe me it does this alot with me most days everyday. You are a strong and beautiful person that just needs some time to heal.
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Oct 06, 2008, 08:31 AM
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(((supermansgirlfriend)))))
sometimes ppl get lost on each side can you talk to him calmly if he wants to really sit down and have aheart to heart talk.... with no one blaming each other..... just talking it out If you love him its worth a try as It sounds like you really care..... remember you are worth it muffy |
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Oct 06, 2008, 09:15 AM
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(((((((((( supermansgirlfriend )))))))))))))) You are worthy of love and you do not deserve to feel this way. I am sorry that you are hurting, I hope things get better for you soon.
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Oct 06, 2008, 09:45 AM
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((((((((((((( Molly ))))))))))))))
 
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Oct 06, 2008, 11:25 AM
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Oct 06, 2008, 11:26 AM
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I really do care about him and I love him very much... but he's back at uni now so 'heart to hearts' are a bit hard... we can't sit down and have a hug at the end of it but I'll try. I'm just stubborn and I want him to show me that he cares... I want him to make the first move. Is that wrong? Quote:
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