[brookie421]

sooo basically my life sucks I am so lost, i feel like i'm in a random person's body who i don't know. IM A DANGER TO MYSELF...i wanna be somebody else. i just wanna get outta here, where i can run no where as fast i can. i want to just scream so loud and let the whole world know how much i hate them. i don't even know why i'm putting myself through all this ****, i feel like i can stop myself, but i guess not. i honestly do not know what to do..i can't telll my friends or my parents. i would never be able to..this is something i think i need to deal with on my own, but idk how.

[gimmeice]

Do you have a T? If not can you call a crisis line in your area? If you feel that you are a danger to yourself you really should seek help. I hope that you are feeling better soon.

[brookie421]

no i dont have one, im not really a danger im just so stuck and dont know what to doo

Originally Posted by gimmeice

Do you have a T? If not can you call a crisis line in your area? If you feel that you are a danger to yourself you really should seek help. I hope that you are feeling better soon.

[DOWNINNATICK]

Hi Brookie;

I know how you feel, I feel the same way as you, but it does sound like you need to find a counselor or a pdoc to help with some meds and talking, that is the only way you can get better. I've tried for years, but I finally had to get a counselor and it does help to let out the pain, and find out things about yourself that you had locked up inside of you.

Hang in there, keep posting and we will help as much as we can and try some of the chat rooms to talk with people as well.

Hugs.
Cindy

[multipixie9]

your words here sound serious. i think you want someone to notice you feel terrible and don't know how to get better.

you deserve help when things get so scary and angry. it is ok to ask for help. sometimes you need to get really loud voiced to make people notice. sometimes the people in our lives get busy inside their own lives and don't see us clearly. sometimes we don't know how to say, "Stop! Pay Attention to Me. Help Me!!!"

please demand someone listen before you get too upset to cope.

i don't even know you and i want you to find some help now.

[brookie421]

the thing is i dont know what to tell people, they never would think i would be so upset. i never show it its always just bottled up inside of me ughhh what should i do? do i say something to someone?

Originally Posted by multipixie9

your words here sound serious. i think you want someone to notice you feel terrible and don't know how to get better.

you deserve help when things get so scary and angry. it is ok to ask for help. sometimes you need to get really loud voiced to make people notice. sometimes the people in our lives get busy inside their own lives and don't see us clearly. sometimes we don't know how to say, "Stop! Pay Attention to Me. Help Me!!!"

please demand someone listen before you get too upset to cope.

i don't even know you and i want you to find some help now.

[Greg77733]

Hi, I feel the same way. I tell my family and all they do is stick their head in the sand. I think you need to decide to fix this yourelf. Call your local mental health and see a therapist. They will probally put you on some meds. Oh yeah, give meds time to work, 2 to6 weeks. When you start looking back you will notice each week you feel a little better. Please get help for self! I send you a hug. Greg

[ScaredSad]

Hi B -- I don't tell people either. I'm not going to sugarcoat anything and tell you that telling people is the answer... because sometimes, it's not.

You are going to run into friends, family, and even mental health professionals who are too wrapped up in their own issues to reach out to you in a way that you might feel would be most helpful at this time. It could be very damaging to you and you might feel rejected and your symptoms might progress.

BUT

At the same time, you might run into friends, family, and even mental health professionals who are able to engage you in conversations that transform your way of thinking. They might be able to embrace you with support that helps you pull out of your lost place into a place of warmth and direction.

Like everything else in life, it's a gamble and there is risk involved. I can tell you that I will never tell my family because my family is a very sick group of people who have significant psychiatric and physical illnesses that limit their ability to reach out. I can tell you that I will probably never tell my friends because I haven't nurtured relationships where this type of information is shared. I can also tell you that reaching out here, just in the last 10 minutes, has helped me tremendously and elevated my mood and lowered my blood pressure. So, based on that and some previous experiences in my life, I believe that just getting this stuff out of you starts the healing process... and lifts enough weight off of your shoulders to get you moving again.

Good luck with things. You are a strong person to be able to talk about it even here... and I especially appreciate that strength since what is helping me in this moment is being able to share this with you.