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#1
Nov 10, 2008, 11:55 PM
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I thought i was at the bottom of the abyss a week or two ago.i found i could only go deeper. I have thoughts i never had before. And they dont just come and go. They are around all the time.i cant distract myself anymore. I seem to be getting more symptoms by the day. It covers everything.i cant sleep,i dont want to eat,i have no likes or intrests anymore.my thoughts are all messed up. They dont come out right.i cant think things through. Cant do this anymore. I cant even cry. I feel like im stuck in a cold, dark and lonly cage. Im tired of needing help. I dont want to be a burden. I really cant go on. How far down can i go? I have to get off.
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#2
Nov 11, 2008, 04:03 AM
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((chrise)
I hope you are feeling better today...please let us know. Can you share what's been going on that's dragging you down? Cap
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#3
Nov 11, 2008, 08:02 AM
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((((((((((( chrise ))))))))))))))))))
Needing help does not make you a burden, it makes you human like the rest of us.  Do you see a T? My t helps me gauge exactly where I am at, which allows me to see from anothers eyes how serious this may be. I know the question you are asking very well, it's something that I have asked myself a lot lately. I am sorry that you are feeling bad right now, I hope things get better for you soon.
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#4
Nov 11, 2008, 08:57 AM
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The abyss is very deep, down to the depths of hell, share with others who have been there too and we will throw a ladder to you.
(((((((((( chrise ))))))))))) 
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#5
Nov 11, 2008, 10:30 AM
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Jung said that healing isn't gained by imagining streams of light, but rather by making the darkness conscious.
It's hard, but there is great power and wholeness in awareness of the depths, however dark they are. Keep talking here as much as you can - finding words can really help. |
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#6
Nov 11, 2008, 10:37 AM
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Chris you must reach out for help IRL!
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#7
Nov 11, 2008, 10:39 AM
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and what can they do?
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#8
Nov 11, 2008, 10:43 AM
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Chris, I think that you need to be hospitalized. You need to rest, you need to talk, you need to be in a safe environment.
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#9
Nov 11, 2008, 10:45 AM
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i have no insurance. i cant leave my kids. dont think havent thought of it? i wouldnt rest anyway.
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#10
Nov 11, 2008, 10:49 AM
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They won't admit you without insurance? Your husband can take care of the kids for a few days. I remember what you have been talking about this last week. How do you think that they would manage if you took that route?
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#11
Nov 11, 2008, 10:51 AM
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oh, they would admit me but how would i pay for it? and they wold have to learn. and it would not be for a few days. |
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#12
Nov 11, 2008, 10:52 AM
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There are kindred spirits here who do care about you. Is there any way you can express what is going on? One of these wise folks may just have a word that could give you some relief.
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#13
Nov 11, 2008, 10:58 AM
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Many hospitals forgive debts or let you pay them off very slowly. This is your well being and the well being of your family that we are talking about here, it is priceless....
I think that them coping without you for a few days would be easier than coping forever.
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Nov 11, 2008, 11:06 AM
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the only problem is it wouldnt be for a few days. i get worse when i go in. its like no restraint exists. i seem to stay in better control on the outside.
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#15
Nov 11, 2008, 11:10 AM
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Chris as long as this is your last option and no other last option exists okay. What is your plan then?
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#16
Nov 11, 2008, 11:16 AM
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i see my sw on thurs. if i can, ive been playing with the idea of talking to my husband. its hard. i do have an option that im not choosing at this time.i just want the pain to end.
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#17
Nov 11, 2008, 11:19 AM
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I am so glad that you are considering talking to your husband. Where are you at now with that in your thoughts?
Please, please do not choose that other option......
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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Nov 11, 2008, 11:23 AM
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one of the 4 kids ,different ones each week, have been sick and home from school for the last month. i have had no time alone with my husband at all without one of the kids being there. today they are home for veterans day. i dont want to pick that option but sometimes the pain is just soooo great that i dont know. i realllly dont want to. and am tring very hard.
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#19
Nov 11, 2008, 11:25 AM
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You 2 can't go in a seperate area of the house while the kids are occupied with something else?
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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#20
Nov 11, 2008, 11:28 AM
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it starts that way. but like when i go on the phone, the 4 yr old has to find me, or they start fighting. its impossible. then my husband is now sick, so he doesnt feel well either.i have to take the girls to the dr today. if i have them with me i wont do anything stupid. i would never hurt my kids.
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#21
Nov 11, 2008, 11:32 AM
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In the first post on this thread you say you are getting worse. Do you know what is causing this? You leave a post like this every night. Do you feel worse at night? Why not talk to your husband tonight after the kids go to bed?
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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#22
Nov 11, 2008, 11:36 AM
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my husband goes to bed before the kids. he get up real early. he just came home. and yes since i cant sleep i sit up and just feel awful. i am having more symptoms. like the not sleeping and eating. i think its just still heading down. my sw was suppose to talk to the dr today about a new rx.to see if that helps.also i cant get on the computer much during the day. i get on at night. during the day i use my phone if i need to get on. the girls have something tonight ill see if i can get away from the other 2 to talk to him.
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#23
Nov 11, 2008, 11:44 AM
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I think that talking to him will really help. Sounds like you have really thought about this a lot and feel ready to do this.
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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#24
Nov 11, 2008, 11:47 AM
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i was going to try several times but just wasnt right time with kids.ill give it a shot . i have nothing to loose. i guess.my head doesnt shut off. all it does is think.
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#25
Nov 11, 2008, 11:52 AM
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Chris, you came around quickly on this. This is amazing!
I need to head out for a few hours now. Maybe I'll talk to you later today?
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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