[Kayleigh]

Wat do you do when you just don't feel like you can go on any longer? I am at that point, and feel like a totally wretched being. Any advice you can give is appreciated, but if you don't wanna waste your time w/me, that's cool too, I guess.

[obsids]

*hugs*

Do you have a T? Sometimes I feel that way too. But it is the depression talking.

Do you take any meds? A lot of times when I feel like that, it is because my meds need adjusting.

And I don't think you are a waste of time. You are a special and unique person. I wish you would have stayed in the chat room. I hope you are okay.

Please take care and get some help, okay?

Obsidian

[silver_queen]

Kay, is there any way you can arrange your appointment with your counsellor so you don't have to wait two weeks? Is there anyone you can talk to at school? Is there a student support centre, or advisers who could give you an idea of what to do? Do you have a student union? Sometimes they have some support networks. Are there any student-run support groups for depression sufferers, or any in the local community?

If things get really bad... there is always the hospital. I know you said in chat that you were terrified of going there, but sometimes when things get so bad, it is the choice between going there and doing something really bad, you know? Is there anybody you can tell, either at school or in your life, about how bad things are going? Sometimes just keeping bad depression disguised is a strain in itself. Not everyone is ignorant about depression: there is understanding and support out there.

[_Fly]

Hi Kayleigh -- I have felt like that. I had to finally get out of the recliner to which I was glued, get a T, and that led to getting meds. People at psych central telling me that I had to do these things over and over again finally penetrated my thick head.

I also was reading and doing what I could to practice Cognitive Behavior Therapy during this period of profound depression.

One of the small things I could do was to stop telling myself "I can't go on" and tell myself "I can hardly go on." That "hardly" opens up just a tiny little place in oneself where hope can live, like a flower growing in a crack in the cement.

Do call a hotline or go to ER and take care of yourself. We care about you, KLee, and you are worth it.

[Kayleigh]

I really can't handle this anymore........ I don't know what to do........... I know I'm a real pain..... ugh..........

[silver_queen]

I just remembered... did you ever have that cou nselling session your University offered? Or has it not taken place yet?

the only thing constant in life is change... so if thats true, then the depression will pass. it might take some energy to help it pass but if you try to pick yourself up out of this, you will be that much prouder of yourself.

P.S. dont ever apologize for expressing yourself. you are not a pain, or a bother. you are in the right place to voice your feelings....and trying to help you, helps me.

[Maya]

I have had that feeling many times - I call my T and he talks to me - gives me hope that the feeling will pass and I will be OK. I do not know what I would do without him.