Need a way out

I feel like i have been in this same spot for way too long. I keep posting and talking but im still in the same spot. I know people are gving me a hand or laders to climb out of the pit but just cant get out. Im doing everything i have to do. I look good on the outside. The kids are taken care of, house taken care of and everything looks great. I dont know what else to do. My head just wont stop. My heart is filled with despair and desperation. I need a way out. I need a light in the darkness. Im not hungry, having trouble sleeping and extremely irritable.it cant get any worse.

i feel ya...hope things get better for you

to you chrise-
I know I'm not the right person to be saying anything - spent the last 5 days crying over my "what-if's" and past relationships and not feeling all that great about where I'm at now. Don't know if it helps, but some of us have been where you're at and sometimes it seems like a long, long time before we can see the light at the top of the pit. Keep resolving to climb the ladders, keep taking one step at a time. You'll turn around and be surprised at how far you've come, but for now, keep taking life one step at a time...ok?
,
Einna
PS - sometimes you need to nibble at something - just don't quite eating altogether.

(((((chrise)))))
iam sorry u still feel bad...
please talk to someone about thus or maybe u should meet ur pdoc or ur T...hope u will feel much more better soon

I wanted to say that the other posters have good ideas and that I am listening I'm just not sure what to say.

Sometimes all we need is someone to say that they are there for us. So I am here for you. If you need to cry on someone's shoulder feel free to PM me I have broad shoulders and can handle it.

Jbug

Hi Chrise,

Many folks have been where you are right now....some are right there with you at the same time...and some have found their way up the ladder to a brighter spot.

It's great that you are able to go through the motions with the kids and the house and the day to day living stuff. Sometimes forcing ourselves to maintain that much is exactly what we need to get us through.

In my own personal experience of when I feel as you are feeling now, I have given myself permission to feel yucky (sometimes reluctantly). But I have also pushed myself to step out of my comfort zone (even tho it's really not all that comfortable) and find one little thing for ME! Even if it was getting my hair cut, or taking that long walk I'd been putting off. Maybe sitting in a hot tub until I was all wrinkled was all I needed to feel as though I had taken care of a part of me.

It's hard to put a stopper on those feelings of darkness....but knowing and convincing yourself that depression lies to you can also help. Depression=Lies....tells you things that work at the very core of you to make you feel horrid. You have the ability to accept those lies or to fight back and accept the truth .... that you do matter, that you are cared about and loved and that you are worthy of feeling better.

I do hope you are feeling better soon.


sabby

hang in there, everyone is in your corner