really not feeling well....

Usually New Year's Day makes me at least *somewhat* hopeful for the months to come. Yet today, I am so freaking depressed I can hardly see straight. It marks my 3rd month of unemployment, which gives me 3 more months to find something before the state bucks run out. In 3 months, I haven't gotten so much as an interview. My health insurance also ended yesterday, and they cut off payment for meds even before that, so I've been without the Depakote for a few weeks, which undoubtedly isn't helping. (I'm on so little Zoloft that it hardly matters -- it's the combination that keeps me sort-of functioning.)

We're up to our eyeballs in snow, my 8-year-old car has something else wrong with it now that I can't afford to fix, and I am just feeling hopeLESS instead of hopeFUL. Anybody care to commiserate?

Candy

Sending hugs ((((((((((( Candybear )))))))))))

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Candy, unemployment can be very very hard. I have been there. I was unemployed for literally a year (not to scare you) and it was the most miserable year. I can not offer advice as to your job search except to keep looking and don't give up. Make your job search your "work" every day. Apply to as many jobs as possible btwn 9 and 5 or 8 and 4. Try to keep on a set schedule if you can. Update your resume, make use of the people in your life to network.

You may be able to also apply for extended assistance ( I assume unemployment). You should call and find out. Also, I know state assistance offices usually make some resources available to those looking for work. Some even offer skill building classes and workshops to maintain or build new skills while you are out of work.

It can be hard to motivate yourself to do any of the above especially if you have already been doing it all and still have had no luck. The depression will still be lingering, I assume you know, and it's probably easier said than done, but try not to let it cripple you in your search. For a little while I let it beat me and I missed out on some opportunities. If you can try exercising as well.

I assume you are currently seeing a therapist? If you are maybe your T can help. If not, do you have someone else you can talk to? Stay strong and keep focused. It can be daunting, I know, I have been through it.

Stay strong and take care of yourself.

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((Candybear))))))))))))))))))))))))))) I am so sorry. I am hoping that early in 2009 you find yourself employed and insured.

BB

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I hope that you are able to find something soon.

((((((((Fuzzy)))))))))) ((((((((((((BB)))))))))) (good to see you, thought you'd forgotten about me) (((((((((((((gimmeice))))))))))) thanks for the hugs and good wishes.

LLT, you're right, I've done all those things and none of it's worked. The state will only cough up $500 a semester to go back to school, and there are so many conditions that it's not worth it. (You have to train in areas of their choosing -- ones that will more or less guarantee you a job when you're done -- etc etc. Plus, even at a community college, $500 will pay for one class and books.)

I do have a T, who shortly will be going by the wayside as I can no longer pay her. Luckily, I can always come here and vent....

I have never been a particularly optimistic person, but being this much more pessimistic than usual is scaring me.