[Miracle1986]

Lately I have been episodes of.... well I guess it's anger.
I am not really sure. All of the sudden like, out of the blue
my teeth will start to grind involuntarily, my fist(s) will clinch,
and/or I will feel this overwhelming sense of... rage build up on
the inside of me. It is triggered by anything and everything.
The littlest of things can and will set it off. For example,
if my dog wipes her cold wet nose on my hand and I don't want her to.
Or if my brother-in-law looks at me the wrong way. Or if I am in bed and
I hear my father-in-law clear his throat from his bed (which if he does it
a lot it means he is awake).

If people are, in my opinion, making too much noise or being too hyper
(ie my sister-in-law), I feel rage. When she comes inside from smoking
and sits down beside me, I feel rage.

And sometimes... I just feel this rage for no "reason" whatsoever"
It has no trigger that I know of. It just... happens.

What the f*** is wrong with me? I feel like I am going completely insane!

[DaisyG]

Hi, no you're not mad it's all part of depression - not that it helps. Before my meds I used to get completely irrationally angry, over nothing. Try to walk away, deep breath, or decide it's just not worth it. Sometimes it feels more like frustration because things aren't the way you want them. Are you on any meds? Mine do help. How I still have a family left after my behaviour over the last few years is amazing. Just remember it will pass, try and block it out if you can.
Take care,
Gayle

[cantstopcrying]

Manda, it's possible that it's just tension and frustration at being in the situation you are in. You are somewhere you don't want to be with people you don't want to be with, with no way to get out of the house when you want. That situation is enough to anyone to feelings of rage.