We're Back Together...

It's good to hear from you =D

About the vet stuff - I think alot more people will be dropping out of college now, and not because they "gave up". Simply because the economy self combusted and they did not have the money. So, I think you'll be ok. Especially if you put your heart into animal stuff asap, you can tell them " I left college to work with animals and because I realized that I wanted to work with animals, not with music". Sure it'll take a few seconds of explanation, but I think it's ok Definitely better than spending more time and money in college when you don't get anything from it.

Facebook is good, I'm glad you're keeping contact! Also glad that your person is trying to get the price down for you - this type of visit can cost so much x.x For me, I have a lesser copay, but it probably ends up around the same because there's not a bus in that direction and I have to grab this car thing we have around the college (i'm on medical leave, but can still do that!)... so still adds up x.x

That's amazing that you could stand up to him like that... make him drop eye contact first. You're so strong And I really mean that. You took control over the physical and mental abuse he put you through, in that moment. I'm curious, did you charge him with rape? My friend had something like that happen, I think her ex raped her... and he pretty much slandered her when she broke up, but she ended up with a restraining order on him. I think he got one back on her (not like she wanted to get within an inch of him o.o)

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Abi's writing a letter to my tutor, Kat, and David Forde, who's the manager of performaing arts and music, and I have to speak to them both today to find out if I can do distance learning, so that i don't have the pressures of college and the people in the class bringing me down and can get all teh assignments done within those 6 weeks, probably way less than that, by getting notes from lectures and other such things, sent to me so that I can do all the work at home, all the assignments, at my own pace, with more free time to do it.

how'd it go

hoping you're well,
~turquoisesea

ps - travelled back to my hometown for my sister and my birthday so, replies might take a bit but I'll be here

I did charge him with rape, but the police were f*cking useless about it.. They put a slight restraining order on him whilst the case was being investigated, but he still precedes to try and rip me apart in college. GRRRR!! It was such an pbvious rape and he got away with it! HOW?!

Wouldn't it be obvious that it was rape, considering the DATE RAPE DRUG was involved?? It makes me sick. he makes me sick. I hate his guts and to be perfectly honest, i hope he rots in hell.. he went out straight after he'd been questioned and raped somebody else. WTF?? How could he not be in prison right now? HOW???!!!!

I don't understand.. It stressesme out too much.. Last night I couldn't sleep. I was so worried about a friend who'd SI'd and another whose best friend comitted suicide. Then I was worrying about how much college work I have yet to do.. My tutor won't let me leave.. She's suddenly jumped in at the deep end, trying to help me with it all. Heh. Took me telling her I had decided to leave, to do that. Great work she's doing. Not. It's only because she'll get questioned as to why I left and will get in the s**t for not helping me in the first place and for being a complete ****** to me. And it'll leave her in the lurch for a singer for the 3 guitarists, the drummer and the bassist, for the FMP gig. Sigh.

So, I'm giving it another week to see if I can catch up and so far, it's looking good. I've got 3 assignments done in 3 days. Crazy, I know.. But somehow I did it. I'm really, really ill, though.. Because of all the stress and worrying etc.. I've been in bed for most of the weekend I dragged myself and Charlene outside for an hour or two yesterday, though, to get some fresh air and soak up some sunshine too. It was so, so nice. The ari was really fresh, and I could smell the grass and.. Oh, it was so good just to be able to sit outside and appreciate the land itself I was talking to Charlene and we had a strange conversation about plants having emotions and stuff. LOL. I said that I wondered if the grass got upset and stuffs when people stood or sat on it, or when other blades of grass get torn out of the ground. Dear me, strange conversation, but it kept me going

i just can't stand being so ill.. I still do everything that I do everyday, even if I shouldn't be doing it.. I can't stop doing it, I feel useless if I just chill out every evening and stuff, I have to be doing something. I just get bored or frustrated. I hate being ill and I just hope that this will go away because it's really not helping my mood

I have the flu for the first time since I was in college and was laughing at how I rode my bike to a geo lab because I needed the grade, then couldn't even see clearly enough to read the measurements we were supposed to be taken. I made notations and sked my partner to do the actual write-up, then promised to do almost the whole next lab myself to make up for it. It's funny now, but it wasn't so funny then. And feeling as sick as I do now I'm not sure how I had the strength to get on my bike in the first place. All this to say that I know how school puts pressures on us to succeed and sometimes we put added pressures on ourselves but I would love to see you take a load off and just take care of yourself. I'm thrilled with the idea of vet work for you but the idea of a break first is even more exciting to me. You've been through sooooo much. I want to see you well and rested and ready to take on the next challenge.

I want to see myself well and rested and ready to take on the next challeneg, but how can I be when my tutor just won't let me? I'm going to try and speak to her about having the first hour off on a Tuesday and Thursday, just to have the xtra two hours at home to relax and prepare for the rest of the day.. I expect she'll say no, but it's worth a try. I think my key support worker's going to talk to her about it. I hope so.

I'm going to talk to my key support worker tomorrow about it, because I need this. I need time in the morning to prepare myself for the day, just to be able to take the time out to do the work and such. Does that sound fair? To me it does.

I found out last night that my best friend is dying.. She has a brain tumor, I've known about it for ages, but.. It's got to the point where the brain tumor just won't stop getting bigger and if she has the operation to remove it, the anesthetic could kill her because her immune system's so weak after all the times she's almost been killed by her Uncle. Especially the last time, when he put her into intensive care. If she doesn't have the operation, then the tumor will kill her anyway.. she's lucky to have made it to her 19th Birthday, let alone 2 weeks past it.

I need to see her, because if I don't I'll regret it just like with all the other people that died. But.. It's a matter of getting from Somerset to Surrey. I can't afford it and I don't think I can get any help with it. Gahhh! What do I do? She's my best friend and she needs me.. But I can't be there and I hate it!