[Not_Frank]

And I'm so suicidal. Y will no1 take me seriously?

I'm not in any immediate danger cuz I have some planning to do first, so don't worry about me.... I don't know how to start this convo so I'll just say that I need help and that this is very embarrassing. I don't wanna be thought of as an emo kid lookin for attention and I should stop here before I rant too much. Or maybe I'll keep going...

I turn 18 on Wednesday so a whole world of alcohol and army knives will be legally opened up to me and that will be very hard to resist. I've been tellin my bf for weeks that I've been depressed and he seems to think it's possible to snap out of it in a matter of minutes and that depression is a "pu55y excuse" for killing yourself. Now I feel guilty that I don't really have anythin to be depressed about which makes me more depressed for bein depressed over nothin. materially I have nearly everything I could ever want, I'm writing this on a friggin iPod touch, so y do I feel so bad. I just wanna die.

[turquoisesea]

hey there, I'm wondering if you have a therapist or any way to get some help with this? you don't have to feel this way, you really don't...

happy birthday, when it comes... just being 18 does not open the door...

[Not_Frank]

It kinda does open the door cuz no1 can stop me buyin them if I'm 18 and I'm weak when it comes to that sort of thing

[Not_Frank]

Sorry, I didn't answer ur question. I don't have a therapist. I had a psychiatrist before so I know how to get one I'm just far too embarrassed

[Miracle1986]

Have you considered calling a crisis line?
They are run by trained and licensed professionals who are there to help you.
They talk to people who are in situations similar to yours all the time.
You would definitely not have to worry about them not taking you seriously.

[Not_Frank]

Thanks for the advice manda but I'd be too embarrassed to do that

[justfloating]

I know it can be tough to reach out for help, but you really have nothing to be ashamed of. Depression is an illness like any other -- there's no more weakness or shame in getting it than getting the flu. The great thing about a crisis line is that it's completely anonymous, and you can talk to them without fear of judgement. Sometimes, depending on where you live, you can also find an email address for your crisis line if you'd prefer to write everything down instead of talk on the telephone, which might be another option for you. From my experience with counsellors, doctors and mental health professionals, there isn't too much you can say that will shock them, and they genuinely want to help you through this. It is possible to feel better than you've been feeling now.

[kaytibear]

I know its embarrassing to ask for help but it is a chance to get better. You deserve that chance. Try to have the same compassion you would have for someone else in your shoes for yourself.

Kayti

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by Not_Frank

Now I feel guilty that I don't really have anythin to be depressed about which makes me more depressed for bein depressed over nothin.

We must be related.

May you find just the right words to effectively convey the seriousness of your situation to the important people around you.

[turquoisesea]

don't want to be harsh... but embarassment or possible harm/death? o.o erm... I think I'd take the embarassment, please consider

[shezbut]

Your Q asking why people aren't taking you seriously has me wondering. Are you referring to professionals or family and friends? Family and friends typically take what people say with a grain of salt. Not because their just a-holes (in many cases). Instead, they aren't professionals in that field and they're are unable to give an educated opinion about whether or not a person is full of beans or if they truly need help.

I highly recommend calling a helpline for emotional support. They really are very caring individuals, with degrees in psychology. All are trained to talk someone "down" without making the situation worse. Please give it a try now ~ best wishes

Shez

[Not_Frank]

Originally Posted by turquoisesea

don't want to be harsh... but embarassment or possible harm/death? o.o erm... I think I'd take the embarassment, please consider

Good point.
I'm feeling slightly better today. I made my mummy breakfast in bed with my wee bro n sis
I'm not gonna abandon my plans but im thinkin that maybe I should talk to a doctor first.

[justfloating]

Talking to a doctor first is a great idea!!!!! Good luck, and I'm glad you're feeling slightly better today.