Help me stay sane... please?

Ok... this thread is really a plea for help and will be updated often.
And since I have no guarantee what my mindset will be down the road,
it may get triggery, so please be careful... I would hate for my pathetic issues to trigger you.

Please, will ya'll help me stay... somewhat "sane" and well... alive... until my psych appointment on the 18th of March?
I don't think, in fact I know I can't do it alone. I am begging you.. please help me???

I think the voices are pissed off that I made the appointment.
They are so loud now I find it hard to hear and/or concentrate on what is going on around me... in reality. does that make sense?

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((Manda))))))))))))))))))))))
First and foremost, your issues are NOT "pathetic"--they are yours, and you are struggling through them bit by bit. If anything, that's extremely admirable. Nobody can judge anybody else's pain, so nothing you feel is invalid or "pathetic."
Ohhhh my friend, I feel for you! Sometimes it's so hard to just hang on a little bit longer, a little bit longer... depression can make a minute feel like forever!!! But the fact that you are HERE asking for HELP tells me one hugely important thing--You want to make it through this! It's difficult, yes, but something inside of you is already committed to healing and wholeness, and you're taking your first big step in the right direction. GO YOU!!!

We will all of course be here for you whenever you need us, but I'd also suggest finding someone close to you who you can call, visit, or talk to in person for support during these next few days. I know it's often very, VERY hard to open up to other people, but if you are indeed struggling to stay alive, it's just as important to find a place where you are absolutely safe, if push comes to shove.

There are also forums here on PsychCentral dedicated specifically to dealing with the
voices you're describing--not pushing you away, mind, but I don't think I can help with that as much as the folks who are dealing with that issue can. What you are "hearing" does indeed make sense, and is something you should be proud you're seeking help for. Again, it's that all-important first step!! Don't let 'em get you too down.

Otherwise, just try to focus on the little, everyday things you have to do (brushing teeth, filling out paperwork, getting dressed, driving the car, fixing dinner) so you don't dwell on what's hurting you too much, and try not to spend too much time alone (unless, of course, that helps you). I find that when I'm really depressed, being around people, especially in situations I enjoy, helps me feel less horrible and a lot safer with myself.

Good luck, and do please keep us posted!!
<3
~muse

Oh and if you need to, don't hesitate to PM me!! I may not be on often, but I'll try to get back to you as soon as I can.

but I don't know what forums those are...

I sent you the links in a Private Message, but they are the Dissociative Disorders forum and the Schizophrenia and Psychosis forum. Hopefully that helps! If you scroll down on the long list of various forums on PsychCentral you will see them on the list.

I got your PM.
Also... thank you sooooooooooo much for your other PM.
Safe hugs are always appreciated.

Manda86, hang in there! We are all here for you no matter how alone you may fee. Feel free to PM me at any time. YOU CAN MAKE IT THROUGH THIS! You know you can. As muse said before me, the fact that you posted here is a testament to your willingness and will to get better. Good luck to you! We'll all be here if you need us!

I'm here for you too. Any way i can help let me know - pm me, or contact me any other way (see my profile for contact info )

you can make it

Hang in there. You are not alone. Just take things little by little until your appointment - one day and one thing at a time.
There is help and treatment for all the things you mentioned in your post. Don't give up. If the insanity overtakes you don't hesitate to go to the hospital. You are welcome to pm me anytime.

Kayti

Hanging in there.... best thing to do, you are almost there....

xoxoxoxox

I am really dissociating right now... :-/
Posted in DD

*hugs* Going to read it... know you can pm me anytime...