Kerria?

I've noticed your absence from posting and was happy to see your post tonight in this forum.

I'm so sorry that things are so confusing and scary right now.

You may be right that the answers might not be here but there are lots of people who go through similar situations and we all try to understand.

I hope you lurk if you're not up to posting right now.

I'm often type and delete with half the threads I attempt to post in here. I write them out, preview them and then say what on earth have I written and if I post this they're all going to know I'm looney toons!

Haven't had anyone here yet call me a fruit loop or nutter so I'm thinking you'll be okay if you are comfortable enough to post.

Take care. It was good to see that you're still around. I'm sorry it is so hard right now sweetie.

Thinking of you.

Thanks so much ___zh.
yes, we're still around but everything's caving in again and i'm trying to find a way out of a lot of dilemmas.
We stopped going to T because of family thinking it made us worse but nobody (inside or out) is happy with the results-
It's so hard. i hate the way parts act. i'm in trouble now for saying that. i need to listen to my advice to others- like in the other thread - but it's- so - hard to do.

i so much wish that there wasn't a fight inside about everything. Yesterday and the past week we have totally lost it in public as well as with family.

we left a hysterical S.O.S.message on my psychiatrist's answering machine. He's on vacation.
Trying to get disability, trying to have help to go on and not to lose hope.

thank you for remembering me,
kerria

Sweetie? if you want to private message me you can click on my name and it will bring up that option and I could talk with you about disability as someone in the middle/end of the process. Please do if you are able or want to.

I can't stand the ways others behave inside but that's my right to feel that! I think you have the right to talk about your feelings here as this is a place that you seek support. For others within you I'm sure there are those that understand *you* deserve support and you're not saying horrible things........you are venting and expressing your frustration.

I might be singing a different tune if you were doing character assasignation on alters/inners/etc. Now that's uncool. It still happens thought. I do my best and sometime things go more smoothly and sometimes I walk around pretending to fit in and play a human in society but have WWIII inside.

Doesn't your pdoc have anyone doing backup while he is away?? If not then could your former T refer you to someone in this crisis time?

Please keep trying to reach out. You deserve help and you're trying so hard. I wish so much for things to ease for you Kerria.

safe hugs to bolster your hope ((((((kerria))))))

Thanks, Ozzie, for the warm welcome. it's so good to 'see' you.i hope that everything going well with you.

Thank you Cats Eye so much for relating and caring. It's good to meet you.

Thank you, __zh.
i'm afraid to call T. we saw him for about four years and it's painful to call. my little ones had a hard time with not seeing him for a long time.
The Dr did have a strange Dr covering but i don't think i can call. too hard. We're not in that bad a crisis any more. (that was yesterday). 1 day at a time. my psych Dr is helping me get disability- i let him release some info. It's really scary to do it but i can't manage anymore without help.

i get flack sometimes for writing negative things about parts. It's scary for me too because we're getting more separated. i can't read my writing later because it's so different. Then there are two or three parts that wrote in one of the threads. It's sso scary to read later. i can tell where i switched. My heart goes out so much to persons trying to live with parts.

Disability is so hard to get. i try to work, when i get there i think it's ok but we can never get there very often. i work part-time and lose all the time at work now. i used to remember a little about what i do there, now it's like going into a black hole. It's a way out of the difficulty of being home, though.

i don't make enough money to afford t.- also too many medical bills/ hospitalization bills. i've been trying to get disability for four years now. The parts that work loves her (his) job. When we saw the disability psychiatrist, he talked to the work person mostly and she's very 'together'. She has not much to do with me though. That State disability Dr thought i was born for working at that job. She was.
i'll send a PM.

Take care everyone,
kerria