We have to have the testing done for the operation on Monday. The operation is in June. The therapist promised they would speak to anesthesiologist in plenty of time to prevent a big meltdown. Since the tests are Monday and the therapists never talked to anyone at the hospital, it looks like the meltdown is coming. They were warned and ignored it. We will not try to explain anything to strange doctors. We know the result of that. We should have known therapists wouldn't do as thy said. How stupid are we? No one wants the surgery anyway.

SUSAN & Calista

[Jewels]

can u reschedule the exams for later in the week an talk ta ur T an explain what is goin on on Monday? ur T cant but say no...an maybe u just donno that the T has already made a record on ur chart at the hosptl...i would just see what can b done an then go after talkin ta ur T...

abbi

[multipixie9]

calista +12,

we think abbi/jewels has good suggestion. i can see why you feel so upset and betrayed. it really would be good to see if you can get things postponed for a bit and insist that the T talk to the medical people so that things can go without a big meltdown. sometimes we need to make a push to be heard/helped so that things don't get all messed up. i don't know what kind of surgery is going to be done, but all surgery is a big deal and you need to be ok going in and get whatever help and support you need to feel safe. EVERYONE is scared of surgery and feels very nervous. good drs. and hospitals know this and try to help people feel more secure.

is any of your system good at talking to people and working things out?? could someone take on the job of trying to get support for the alts? i know how big this is and i hope they will reach out and help this to go ok. we care,

leslie and pixies

we spos to get 2 new knees. we skard of surjere too. we sorry u needs dis. we say pray for u, is ok?? bye kiki

Thank you both. The surgery is for thyroid cancer. We didn't know that the anesthesia resident was planning on speaking with us at the time of the tests. Neither did our therapist.
Our mood has been all over the place and we don't feel comfortable trying to speak to the anesthetist. We've been made fun of before by "professionals" when we try to explain why some panic. We can't postpone the testing because of scheduling issues.
Maybe this is the way it should be. If the tests and trying to speak to the doctor and make sure he understands the other's panic are too much, we shouldn't have surgery. If that means a shorter life...so be it. no one will notice any way. We don't know any more. Life hurts.

[Jewels]

lemme tell u what we told our anesthetist...an it wuz very scary indeed...but we did it an he understood an they hadda intern there who put the mask over our face an we were really panickin an then the anesthetist saw the fear in our eyes an gently took the mask off our face an left it lay in front so we wuz still gettin the air but we din feel like we wuz bein smothered...an all cuz we told the anesthetist what we had an how it affected us...please tell ur anesthetist about bein scared...u would b surprised how empathetic they are an how much they will help u...it helped us way much an we tell all the drs now when we have surgery how scared we r an they have extra people talkin ta us while we r bein put ta sleep ta help us not b so fraid...an they put a bandaid on our bear too so we could see that they knew ta treat us gently...we will b prayin for u that u can get it out...maybe ask ur T ta call ahead ta talk ta the anesthetist...that might help too...we will b sittin here with u an hopin for a good report...

abbi

i'm so sorry you're going through all this. There are lots of people that would be sad if you didn't get the care you need. i know how scary surgery is and how different scary thoughts can take over (if that's part of the issue). i'm not sure if things have gotten worked out yet but hope you can get the help you need to feel as safe as possible. i like how people sit with people here to show they care. i will sit with you as you go through this if you like. Please let me know if there's anything i can say or do.

[multipixie9]

deer calista+12,

not all doctor/nurse peepl ar ratfinks. sum can be gud an kind. owr sis-in-law had this surgery las yeer an she did reel gud on the get better part.

it mite seem betr to u to jus die soonr but i don fink alla u peepls insid agrees. sum wana liv an wud be vere upset to not get their hole life.

part of wat u pays for in surgery is for peepl TO TAKE GUD CARE OF U. is not u has to pay mor to get gud care. NO is ther job to take gud gud care of alla u. so plees makem do they job for u cos we don want u shud die no no no. ok byby,

lil pixies

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((( Calista + 12 )))))))))))))))

((((((Calista))))))
When I had surgery some yrs ago, I told my Dr that I was terrified of going under anesthesia. That I wanted to see him while they were putting me under so I knew he was watching out for me. He was great and did that.
I didn't know about the DID then and alll I know was that there was this awful panic and terror.

When I had recent surgery I told my Dr I was a survivor of abuse and that I was really scared of having surgery. She said she would let the OR ppl know and they were very supportive.

Perhaps if you can't verbalize what you want to say, write a letter to your Dr and say something like you are a survivor of severe childhood abuse and feel very anxious about the surgery. Most Drs will respect that b'cuz they want you to be as relaxed as possible during the surgery.

Just our thots

Still sitting with you

[Jewels]

we r here sittin with u too along with meso...love u...