[Kathyanita]

so it is clear: i DO NOT abuse children or behave abusive towards them. I DO NOT say i am always right and ABUSE people who do not agree. I have a husband for 25 years. i DO NOT have MAN ALTERS who are ABUSERS to children and to FEMALES. we took in a child for 2 years whos foster family threw her out when she turned 18 and was not being paid by the state. my children have always had care from mental health resources anytime they were feeling problems i could not answer. I have ALWAYS been admitted to the hospital if i was too confused to be a good mother INSTEAD of acting badly against them. my girls like me . i know how in DID you could have part that is a copy of the perpertrators so i would rather be in the hospital at all times if i felt anger. i have NO RECORD of any arrest or behavior against any one. MENTALLY ILL people are most likely to be victim of crime than to be perpertraters. i DO NOT abuse my spouse or try to make him feel worthless or ABUSED i will not leave here until i cleared my name. if i am going to be acting out and dangerous to my self or ANY ONE i am going to the hospital. they can electricute me and erase every thing i already learned so far and i will just have to learn it over again. thank you for your support in this matter. thats all

[kimmydawn]

kathy, it sounds like you take really good care to not be abusive to anyone around you. i think that's wonderful.

the offer stands to pm me if you need.

thanks,

kd

[Mahali]

It sounds like perhaps somebody made some false accusations or wrong assumptions? If they did I am so sorry.

I am proud of you to always take steps to keep yourself and others safe. It sounds like you care so much for the people in your life. I know how hard it can be to make the decision to go to the hospital and you should be commended for this.

I would prefer you did not leave the forum but if you have please continue to take care of you.

Take great care.

place

[wi_fighter]

KA, can I PLEASE try to explain to everyone what you are talking about? I know you are referring to my explanation of why I had to ignore you. I did not say you had man alters or accused you of abusing women or children.

I spent a long time wording that message to ensure you that I was not blaming you or implying you were "him" in any way. Some of your strong opinions trigger me, that's all.

If you would like, you have my permission to post the PM I wrote to you. Or I would like your permission so I can post it. It might open me up to be ridiculed by other people, but I would like to get this out in the open instead of people wondering why you are so upset. I wish you would have messaged me back or replied to one of my three posts after you acknowledged my presence on the board, but you didn't.

I don't know what else to say.

[RhysMadison]

I hope this matter has cleared up to your satisfaction. I'll add though, you do not have to ever explain yourself to anybody. It was kind that you did. I think you may have done so to help yourself.
Wishing you the best.
Love,
RhysMadison

[Kathyanita]

i was helped by 1 moderater . I acted according to the rules and the moderator then also acted apropriately on my behalf. Thank you for your asking. I am not in the hospital now and i am still aware of learning from people here and my self.

[Mahali]

You did a great job. You keep up the good work.

Take care.

place

[Kathyanita]

Thank you very much Place for telling me that.

you're doing the best you all are able at this time and that is fantastic!! Learning from yourself and others is a great way to work on things.

I know how much you dislike the hospital so I am glad to hear you have stayed safe. Please continue to do so.

We all have to learn somehow so think of this like a really big classroom in which we're all learning together and learning how to be here in a supportive way while still receiving the things we need. We're all sooooooooo different and that is what makes this place wonderful and challenging all at the same time.

Every day here is a learning experience for me. I'm part of the learning curve as well ya know!

take care,

[Kathyanita]

you are right i read about how trauma is because of not getting the injury repaired because no one was there to help and to care or admit and see it- when you are a child- so i think it means its one thing to hurt and get hurt and even cause it but its not as damaging as if you do not have any way to attend to the injury with anyones help. Does that sound right like I got it? I am glad you wrote about taking resposablity in the PTS forum but i admit i did not read it really well yet. i will at another time.

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you are right i read about how trauma is because of not getting the injury repaired because no one was there to help and to care or admit and see it- when you are a child-

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> YES! That is a very good way of looking at this.</font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>
so i think it means its one thing to hurt and get hurt and even cause it but its not as damaging as if you do not have any way to attend to the injury with anyones help.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> you are making perfect sense here to me. </font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>
Does that sound right like I got it? I am glad you wrote about taking resposablity in the PTS forum but i admit i did not read it really well yet. i will at another time.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">You sound like you have a good understanding of this now. You've pieced this together like a detective. Good work!

As for reading that other post in PTSD forum.....take your time. I often have trouble reading and remembering what I just read.

You've been making some really big connections between things lately. Please rest safely after all this work hon! I'm amazed!!