[kris9999]

I've read on here countless times that people write to their "alts" to get answers... I was wondering how this would work so maybe I can try this... What do you do? What do you write? How does it work? Do they come out and write back? Does it even work for people who still are in the "blackout phase" and people whose "alts" don't come out very often?

I'd like to get some answers, not answers to my blackouts since I KNOW I'm not ready for that and fear I may never be. What I would like to know is who they are, about them, their likes and dislikes, just in general who they are.

I would also like to know why they never come out to me unless I'm under extreme stress. And why they feel they must hide from me.

Could someone please help me understand how to write to them so maybe I can learn a little more about them? Thanks for any replies!

Kris

[Eriksplus]

I think it'll work!

(Dance)Erik

I've tried it before and it helps even though my situation is different.

[Elysium]

Kris...

I sometimes write, and it helps some. Sometimes I will write something and put it somewhere and find it months/years later and not know when I wrote it or who really wrote it.

As far as why YOUR alters seem to be hiding from you...I'm not sure and I wouldn't want to offer you any info that may go against what you believe.

For ME...my alters hide because their jobs are to protect the system and protect the girl....at all costs. And you can't protect the girl if you're constantly out playing around. Don't get me wrong...they do come out, but mostly they come out at home. Every once in a while they will appear at work or around a friend/family member, but I have been working in T to prevent this. Besides...we've got the Operator who manages who's out and who's in...usually. For ME...the system serves one purpose...to protect.

I also know, that for ME, my alters will not be FORCED out. When I attempt to go to fast, to soon, they hide and go in deeper. Yes, they come out under extreme stress because the system sends the alters out, like soldiers, to attempt to fight the war. As the need for protection decreases, they stay hunkered down, awaiting the next battle.

I would also like to offer (MY) opinion that you are not experiencing blackouts per se. You are experiencing times when your alters ARE out and you have not progressed in your treatment to get to the point where you have co-consciousness, which is the ability of having a higher awareness between alters and between alters and host. Most likely, until you progress in your treatment, this dissociative amnesia will continue until you get to co-consciousness and you will need to come to terms with the fact that if you WANT them out more, for now that will mean more dissociative amnesia, not less. Unfortunately, according to your previous posts, you have decided already that you did not want to work towards healing because you didn't want them to go away. The only way to move toward co-consciousness and live a more cohesive life with them all and NOT have as much dissoc. amnesia, is to be willing to work towards healing to get to that point.

If you would like to talk more about this, I would be glad to talk with you more, but right now, I think that will be enough.

I will talk with you later....

Take care,

[kris9999]

Thanks for all of your comments and advice. I will probably try soon but I might run it by my t on Tuesday first.

Elysium... This debate has been worn out (not trying to sound harsh). Yes I want my alts to stay and I don't think getting rid of them would heal me but do more damage. My life isn't just a few traumatic events but a series of them and they never stop. If my alters leave I will be forced to face these traumas and alone. Therefor I never wish for them to go away and I don't wish to know what has happened in my previous blackouts either. They are too much for me to handle and more than likely always will be.

I do thank you for your comment and I am sorry if my comment came off as rude even the smallest bit, but the debating and fighting in this forum has made me grow tired. Part of me doesn't even want to post in here any more but I keep doing it in hopes that one day people will stop trying to convince me of the things that I do not believe or want.

My reason for coming on here is to get support which I have never gotten in my entire life. That and understand DID better so I will know what is going on in this head. I do not wish for my "alters" to be out 24/7 and I do not wish for them to go away. I just wish to remember when they are out.

Thanks for all of your replies and I hope everyone is well!

[DLHsSystm]

kris,
about writing to alters...I have done this. What I have done is start with a fresh page, and written down an introduction and a question. Like Hi I am Debbie and I would like to thank whoever helped me drive home from therapy yesterday. Do you have anything you would like to say?
Then I just clear my mind and hang out with the pen and paper. Sometimes I switch the pen to my left hand but not always.
Hope this gives you some helpful ideas.

Debbie51

[Crew]

Hey,

I agree with DHLS's post! I would also add the date and thank alters for coming out, seems to help inside ppl that wants to talk/ Oh and a composition noteook is awesome to because it is hard to tear out the pages for alters that don't want something said but the big thing is get alter's communicating. IF at first alters don't come out, keep it open and in the same place that helps to. YOu have such a good bunch of ideas.

Good Luck...Hang in there and expect great things!!! ThaCrew

[kris9999]

Thanks everyone for the advice, I'm really hoping it works right now, I could really use a friend who I know wont leave... Thanks everyone!

Originally Posted by kris9999

Thanks for all of your comments and advice. I will probably try soon but I might run it by my t on Tuesday first.

Elysium... This debate has been worn out (not trying to sound harsh). Yes I want my alts to stay and I don't think getting rid of them would heal me but do more damage. My life isn't just a few traumatic events but a series of them and they never stop. If my alters leave I will be forced to face these traumas and alone. Therefor I never wish for them to go away and I don't wish to know what has happened in my previous blackouts either. They are too much for me to handle and more than likely always will be.

I do thank you for your comment and I am sorry if my comment came off as rude even the smallest bit, but the debating and fighting in this forum has made me grow tired. Part of me doesn't even want to post in here any more but I keep doing it in hopes that one day people will stop trying to convince me of the things that I do not believe or want.

My reason for coming on here is to get support which I have never gotten in my entire life. That and understand DID better so I will know what is going on in this head. I do not wish for my "alters" to be out 24/7 and I do not wish for them to go away. I just wish to remember when they are out.

Thanks for all of your replies and I hope everyone is well!

Kris
I'm not going to give you advice cause everyone is different, but who told you your alts have to go away? I wouldn't like that either. I dislike not remembering things, but I would never want them all gone.
As for remembering alters when they're out; that's co consiousness and I haven't totally gotten there yet. Maybe I don't want to get all the way there. There has to be a happy medium in all of this.
I DO hope you get the support you need.