Not Sure If This Is The Right Place...

Hi everyone,

When I listen to music, I make up on-going stories...it's really embarassing to say this! But like, in my "stories", I'm older, more mature, better looking, and I have er...special powers. x.X This is the first time I've posted about this. I often put myself in peril in order to save others in my stories.

I often listen to music when I'm stressed, anxious, or depressed, not to listen to music, but to continue these on-going stories. Sometimes it takes up a large part of my day, and I don't even need music to think of the stories, it can happen at any time during the day.

Does this sound like a form of dissociation? I definitely dissociate, but as far as I know, to a degree that most people do (Daydreaming, people having to call my name a few times before I respond, and I suffer from derealization).

If I'm posting in the wrong spot, I'm VERY sorry.

I was just reading about the dissociation disorders on http://psychcentral.com/disorders/ As far as I can see nothing you wrote about meets any part of the disorders side of dissociation so my opinion is that its the normal Im bored with my life so for a bit Im going to daydream kind of dissociating. Here the kind of thing you wrote about is called escapism and its normal and not always a bad thing. alot of people who do this end up actually changing their lives for the better by trying to make their daydream of being a better and healthier person a reality and end up being choosy on career moves so they end up in the end with a better healthier life even finacially.

I used to daydream about going to college in the days when it was obviously out of my league to do. my family just wasnt in the place where they could finance my college, the location nearest college might as well been a whole state away because I lived up in the backwoods of the hollers where practically no one leaves. but with the help of my daydreaming I found creative ways to get the education and life that I wanted for myself.

we arent allowed to diagnose people here so you might want to find a psychiatrist and therapist and talk to them and have testing done so you can find out what it is.

but I say keep on dreaming about what you want to be and what you want your life to be and maybe someday you will be able to find the way to be that healthy strong person you dream about being.

Ohseedee, all the best to you!

I hope to read a story of yours, maybe in the Creative Forum. I don't know if you know it is there? It is great to meet you.

A future psychologist hey? Well, I hope you get a chance to learn about trauma, splitting, and resultant DD stuff. It would be really wonderful to have a few more 'good, caring, kind, knowledgeable' psychologists in this area of psychology. It takes an insightful person and perhaps your stories prepare you for this bright future!

Love,
Hunny

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welome here, and we all do even sigletions are allowed to dis realtiy for someting louder every once in a while hope to read your stories on the creative cornner foum too!

Welcome :-) We had stories inside us but we were inside those stories while abuse was outside most of the time. In fact, I stayed off-world on a single island all by myself for 2 yrs while I was dissociative with an alter who lived for me from age 10-12. Just my personal experience.

Hi there,

I have observed that many people with DID have been through a traumatic experience, horrible things that I couldn't imagine going through myself.

So I feel like a jerk when I "escape" into my stories, and I daydream, and I have trouble listening...because I haven't been through anything traumatic in my life. I feel almost, weak. :/ Like, I'm too weak to deal with "real life". Throughout my life I've had my stories and thoughts means of escape from reality.

I've never actually "become" somebody else, had an alter. I've always been well, "me" but just often thinking about other things inside of me. I'm just confused and frustrated, since it takes up my time. And my stories are ALWAYS better than my reality, so sometimes I don't want to go back. >.<

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Life is relative, like all things. What is hugely exciting to one, might not warrant more than a smile by another. When talking about feelings and emotions, weakness is a judgement that demeans, please don't apply this to wonderful yourself.

I was wondering if it was safe to assume by your name that OCD plays a part in your life. As it seems to be the persistent nature of your escapism that is concerning you, as opposed to the stories themselves, perhaps it may be a manifestation of an aspect of OCD? Escapism from 'real life' is something that I believe every human being has moments/days/weeks/months when they want to escape the reality of their life, whether it be due to trauma or merely boredom, again its all relative.

It sounds like, and as some of the other posts have pointed out, that you have a wonderful imagination that may benefit from having your stories out of your head and put onto paper. And do be sure to post your stories at PC for us all to enjoy!

Good luck with your future ventures.
Best wishes,
kp

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I think it is a coping skill. My daughter has stories running through her head all the time. For her, it's part of OCD and a way her brain has figured out to cope with life. The more stress she is under, the more stories her brain writes.

It helps her to write them down and in fact has become an excellent writer through it all.

For her, it is different than dissociation, although she does dissociate to a small degree. Good luck as you figure things out.