[WePow]

Anyone ever have an alter who was well hidden be brought out and you see something you never ever thought you would have done?
I had that happen last night and I know what was done by me as an 8yr old girl to the teen boy who was chronically molesting and assulting me was just to escape the situation that day. A part of me split away though because action done of pushing him away as he was taking down his pants resulted in a very bad fall but we did not stay to see if he was OK. We RAN!! And later on we heard about him being in the hospital in very bad shape. We only last night remembered this. I know I had no choice but right now I am feeling so odd... lost? Confused? Not sure. It is like I am waking up from one nightmare into another? I know it is part of the healing... and I never told anyone but instead an alter fragment was formed who guarded that secret from us. We would have dreams of running from the police afraid of having to go to serve jail time.

Anyone else experience anything like this? How long did it take you to get back to normal?

[kasva]

hi wepow...im not sure...but i wanted you to know i read your post and i am wishing you wellness. i do have a huge fear of going to prison but i don't know why i have that fear............kasva

[Hunny]

(((((((WePow)))))))

and to:

the little 8 year old part that protected her at one time :

We thank you for your effort of bravery and valour. You are innocent! We pray that guilt and shame be erased from your little heart. You did nothing wrong! Be clear, clarity of mind is coming! Keep talking to your therapist and to WePow. She loves you!

So much caring and concern,

Love,
Hunny

Originally Posted by WePow

Anyone ever have an alter who was well hidden be brought out and you see something you never ever thought you would have done?
I had that happen last night and I know what was done by me as an 8yr old girl to the teen boy who was chronically molesting and assulting me was just to escape the situation that day. A part of me split away though because action done of pushing him away as he was taking down his pants resulted in a very bad fall but we did not stay to see if he was OK. We RAN!! And later on we heard about him being in the hospital in very bad shape. We only last night remembered this. I know I had no choice but right now I am feeling so odd... lost? Confused? Not sure. It is like I am waking up from one nightmare into another? I know it is part of the healing... and I never told anyone but instead an alter fragment was formed who guarded that secret from us. We would have dreams of running from the police afraid of having to go to serve jail time.

Anyone else experience anything like this? How long did it take you to get back to normal?

[anderson]

((((((WePow)))))) You and the 8yr old did nothing but protect yourself. The simple truth is the person that hurt you at that time did not want to admitte to others why you as a whole had to protect yourselfs that day. You can let it go with the knowledge what ever happen all those years ago was taken care of back then. Now it is time for both of you to let it go. Two wrongs do not make a right but what you did was protect yourself there is no wrong in that only self protection. WE hope that all of your parts can accept that fact. When we had memiors of what we did to get the body to this point. At first we were in shock and shame , how could any off us be able to do that. but the truith is we did what we did to save our son's life and a hope that he would have a better future. When we cried on our military friends shoulder he reminded us of our group that went through a type of military traing and that what we did was what we were trained to do. It did not take the waight of it offen us but we as a whole able to start to accept that we did the best we could do to keep the body and our son safe. We would not have done that had the people or persons had not tried to hurt us first. And that is the true question, If this person was not hurting you would you have done it? There is no shame in protecting oneself or family. The shame belongs to the ones that thought you where an easy victum and that day a part of you decided not to be the victum no longer. Be proud of that fact! You choise to protect yourself. Be proud!

Originally Posted by WePow

Anyone ever have an alter who was well hidden be brought out and you see something you never ever thought you would have done?
I had that happen last night and I know what was done by me as an 8yr old girl to the teen boy who was chronically molesting and assulting me was just to escape the situation that day. A part of me split away though because action done of pushing him away as he was taking down his pants resulted in a very bad fall but we did not stay to see if he was OK. We RAN!! And later on we heard about him being in the hospital in very bad shape. We only last night remembered this. I know I had no choice but right now I am feeling so odd... lost? Confused? Not sure. It is like I am waking up from one nightmare into another? I know it is part of the healing... and I never told anyone but instead an alter fragment was formed who guarded that secret from us. We would have dreams of running from the police afraid of having to go to serve jail time.

Anyone else experience anything like this? How long did it take you to get back to normal?

[WePow]

Thank you all very much. It was hard remembering these things.
We did let it go though and released the pain. And we found out after letting it go that the damage done to the boy was not fatal. So that made us very happy.
At least we did see what you are saying and know it is truth. Thank you.

[krazy_phoenix]

(((((((WePow)))))))) (((((((((anderson)))))))))

we have one who holds rage. this energy is very powerful, very strong, far physically stronger than any of the rest of us and is capable of great violence. it is scarey to know she is there, and heart-breaking to know that innocents in my life have been on the receiving end of her (adults, not our children, though this is a constant fear). but also those who are not innocent, who perpetrated violence against us as an adult, who have been on the receiving end. we don't have much in the way of memories, just information that has come from others inc the police. there is much shock, shame and guilt associated with these incidences but also there is an element of great awe; it is so hard to comprehend that the hands that are typing these words committed such acts of violence against other human beings. we struggle with acceptance of this part that has no communication with the rest of us and live in constant fear of hurting our loved ones as we have such little understanding of this part. i think we may have gotten off track with your thread, sorry for doing so, and i don't have anything positive to offer for your situation, other than i understand the shock such memories can evoke.

thanks,
kp

[WePow]

(((( krazy phoemix )))) thank you TONS! That is EXACTLY what I am referencing. It does help to know that others out there have the same type of questions that come when such an alter makes a stand to protect us.