my closest local friend is moving away. i am really sad. she got to know a couple of my selves--even though she didn't know it at the time. now she is leaving. she says she will be back to visit. that's what they all say. once gone-gone for good. now i am going to be lonely again. i can't cry i never cry i never cry--i am a rock, i am an island. should have stayed that way. should never let anyone in. then they leave. i will be a rock again. i will be an island again. no more letting people in to just leave and take and take. she cries. i don't cry. never. i am rock.

White Iris

I know the feeling you are describing so well. Please know that we care and are listening.

I was also a rock. An island.

Now I let my tears fall whenever they want to.

They help my petals grow.

(((WI)))

Petunia

someone wants to cry--i feel the knot in my stomache sometimes. then i think it's not safe or time or whatever. i feel like i am sitting on pandora's box. i am afraid to let anything or anyone out. rock is safe. doesn't have to feel all the pain again. doesn't even see or remember. can let friend go and be "happy" for her new life and not miss her. i won't be lonely then.
WI

[cat_eye]

I am a rock. I am an island. That applies to me, too. Also, it's a fabulous Simon and Garfunkel song. I hope you find some place safe where you can cry

love the song. was my theme song during all of my high school (maybe end of jr. hi) yrs. i wish that i could find some place safe. t is not seeing clients this week, but has said if i need to see her...i'll see. just had a beer with my friend. talked about everything but how much i will miss her. oh well. she's not one for soggy stuff in public.

[Hope4me2]

White.......I know what your feeling all to well..........I cannot cry either.......and I am a loner because I fear what you fear about letting people get close and then them leaving me.........your NOT alone.........I am listening too

((((((((hope)))))))
thanks--loneliness stinks. but it always happens. get close and they either move or die. i know it is a part of life, but it happens too much. and those that you wish would disappear hang around forever!!! go figure...

[misty]

Sorry to hear that your friend is moving (((((((((((((((hope))))))))))) It is very hard to put trust in ppl to have them leave. I've pushed ppl away in my life who put trust in me too though.
Some times I wish no one helped me to open pandora's box cuz I can't stand to cry cuz I feel so weak. On the other hand it does feel better to get the rock feeling out of the gut.
lrks