feeling really bad-need support

deedee's hiding, vicki is mad and hurting, others are wanting to be heard and i'm getting the fallout from it all. i am so tired and so drained. i'm feeling like i can't hold it all together much longer. bits and flashes of graphic memory. like some kind of fast movie too fast to catch what anything really is. eyes open or closed it just flashes on.

have my final tonight in sign language. gotta be able to focus. supposed to go to the funeral home now wife of one of my H co-workers died-cancer 52--my age. i think i will go hide.
w_i

((((((((((( w_i ))))))))))))))

((((((((((white iris))))))))))

w_i,

You really need to try and get some rest.

Too much, too fast is not good. I just went through this myself. I am under "call and check in with T daily" because of this. (Some people might like the sound of that, I find it punishment)

You need to be able to stay safe.

I'm sorry about your co-worker's wife. These things have a way of knocking us on our butts as well.

You are under way too much stress.

Check in often.

I'll have you in my thoughts.

Petunia

White Iris
I agree with Petunia. I have just been there - yesterday with my T and then with my Dr - and wasn't able to hold stuff together.

Can you tell Deedee and vicki that they can have their time but not now? Perhaps you can tell them when you can give them time? I don't know, I'm no good at this myself; all too new for me to be much help.

I find doing something rhythmic helps mine. Swimming is good for me. The memories get processed a bit without all the pain.

Do you have anything you can take to calm you a little? Not easy with an exam, but what about a herbal remedy? A relaxation tape?

Wish I could come up with something useful for you. Thinking of you all even tho I can't be much use. Sorry.

((((((((W_I))))))))))) ((((((((((((deedee))))))))))((((((((((vicki))))))))))))) ((((((((((((((((((others)))))))))))))))))

Caroline

(((((((((((((((((white iris))))))))))))))))

here - you can have my lanmby to cuddle if you need to.

i'm so sorry you're having such a difficult time w_i. i know that Vicki and both deedees are too. i am sending warm thoughts your way and i hope everything gets better. please do get some rest after your exam, if you are able.

((((((((((w_i)))))))))))))
((((((((little deedee)))))))))))
((((((((big deedee)))))))))))))
((((((((((((Vicki))))))))))))))
****group hug****

take care of yourselves and PM me anytime you need/want to. that goes for you too, w_i, not just vicki and deedee

-shadow

WHITE IRIS, i HOPE DEEDEE AND VICKI CAN COME TOGETHER A BIT AND MAYBE HELP YOU WITH ALL THE UPSET. i KNOW HOW YOU MUST FEEL. iT TOUGH WHEN THE OTHERS ARGUE OR HAVE DIFERENT ISSUES AND FEEKLING AND ALL OF THEM WANT TO BE RECOGNISED AND DEALT WITH AT THE SAME TIME. bE VERY KIND TO YOURSEF

OOOOPPPPS, my last post is in capitals and I know that is like shouting but Im not. I made a mistake. Please dont think Im shouting. IOwould never do that to you W I. Hope no offence is taken.

Lots of Love

Audrey XXXXX ( )

thanks everyone--no offence taken audrey--
have no clue how i did on the exam. my instructor is a good friend and she knows of my DID so i did clue her in before hand. we made it through anyway. i know i made a couple of stupid mistakes, but i have a high A so my instructor said not to worry.

deedee is still hiding except for a couple of little spurts. vicki is still sulking. there was no help from them on the exam. they usually help alot. especially both deedees as they *love* signing.

well, getting ready to go to a funeral. i am hoping everyone stays in and quiet. funerals trigger lots of stuff. H will be there so i think we'll be ok.

thanks again for all your support.
w_i

Yes, funerals are not easy.

I have you in my thoughts.

Petunia

((((((((((((((((((((((white iris)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
So sorry that all of you are having such a tough day. Be good to yourself and know that we're all keeping you in our thoughts.Love Grace

Hello WI, how are you doing. We all wondering about you.


Iris (((((((((((((((((((((((W I)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

i'm ok Iris--thanks. Feeling really tired. deedee got to talk to T yesterday and she is really drained. it was hard for her. but she feels better too.
how are YOU doing??
w_i

thanks (((((((((everyone)))))))) for the support. funeral went ok. one more sign language class on tues. then i start getting my stuff together to teach sign in sept. i just hope that i can do this.
w_i