[kimmydawn]

right? when i see all that i see right now, i wonder how i have to this point.

we've already made it is what i have to keep telling myselves. i'm not too convincing sometimes.

ok. thanks.

[wanttoheal]

((((((((((((((((((Kim)))))))))))))))) You TOTALLY are going to make it, for real. I believe in you Kim. You all are amazing, truly amazing. The progress you have made just in the last few months is awesome. You are an inspiration for me to continue through hell, trying to get out. You not only already made it, you are thriving. More than a survivor Kim, you are a winner.
My best,
wantto

[kimmydawn]

(((((((((((((((((wantto))))))))))))))))))))

you keep me going on as well. i don't know what i would do without your relation and care. it's not that hard until i'm able to view the "bigger picture" like i can right now...when it's all right here.

it IS all right here...well, a certain period of my life. i have this certain place we lived...all of it...right here sitting with me. it's hard.

thank you again.

kd

[kimmydawn]

(((((((((((((susan)))))))))))))))

thank you! the thing about being so dissociative is that i could just get bits and pieces at different times, and then it still felt like too much. well, now i have an entire four year period...complete. all of it is sitting right here with me. my mind isn't set up to do stuff that way and yet it's happening. it's wild.

thank you always for your support.

love ya,

kd

[CedarS]

Give yourself plenty of time and support, you are indeed gonna make it! And you are already.

If possible, maybe do something to celebrate, take yourself out for a treat or something, to mark your success.

(((((((kimmy)))))))

[kimmydawn]

thank you so much (((((((((((((((sarah)))))))))))))))))

yes, this is a good thing. it was just given to me in pieces in journal and in mind and feeling...alot of it just kinda hung around and now, here it is.

it's very strange.

thank you so much for support. you are very kind.

kd

[CedarS]

When I go through assimilating pieces, when things get rearranged inside and added to and seen differently, sometimes I feel as if I've been dropped into another country.

Or as if my usual way of walking is now entirely different. The world and me in it can feel weird, odd, strange, awkward. Not necessarily bad but usually uncomfortable.

Often I am really tired when I get to the -here it is- point. I think our beings go through more exertion and effort than we often know, all the inside changes can be hard work.

Kimmy, it is very inspiring to hear of your process, thank you.

Sarah

[kimmydawn]

sarah said:

When I go through assimilating pieces, when things get rearranged inside and added to and seen differently, sometimes I feel as if I've been dropped into another country.

Or as if my usual way of walking is now entirely different. The world and me in it can feel weird, odd, strange, awkward. Not necessarily bad but usually uncomfortable.

Often I am really tired when I get to the -here it is- point. I think our beings go through more exertion and effort than we often know, all the inside changes can be hard work.

wow! how well you put into words my experience! thank you for the relation, and THANK YOU for being who you are.

i appreciate you.

kd

[__zh]

my mind isn't set up to do stuff that way and yet it's happening. it's wild. but we are set up that way if you think about it. adaptable is key to dissociation survival so the ability to handle strangely complex information suddenly is rather our niche in a way.

it sounds strange and hard and weird. we have utmost faith you'll find ways to further strengthen your lighthouse and allow still more light into those darker reaches. from what you write it sounds like there is more knowledge shared within this lighthouse and perhaps not as many keepers are needed as once were? just an idea from the sounds of things....

((((kd)))) you have courage spilling out of yer ears....you can do this because you are doing it.

oh yes, you will make it kimmy dawn. From the little I know of you I know that for sure. You are so strong and I really admire you.
Caroline

[kimmydawn]

(((((((zh))))))))) of course i know that you're right. i also know that since i've been about 6 information, knowledge and feelings have been compartmentalized. therefore, it feels like my mind isn't setup to have information and feelings all at once. what i keep telling myself is that it's all there anyhow, so it CAN be handled. it won't explode it's just being taken out of the closets in the lighthouse, sorted thru and the needed things are now being displayed in the main room.

thank you for your gentle reminder and always for your care.

kd

[kimmydawn]

thank you very much, caroline. it's so appreciated. it's been rough, but i've seen rougher i'm finding out.

it will make it. i have no doubt.

thanks again,

kd

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((( kimmy )))))))))))

sending bearhugs and care,
Fuzzy