[justdontknow]

There are some days where I am so discouraged, I feel helpless. When I can think rationally and logically, I know I am not helpless, but today I feel that way. So many things have gone wrong and I hate it. Even the youngers (littles) feel my helplessness and they are scared. It makes them cry which makes me feel even worse. I guess I am just asking for some encouragement which is hard for me to do.

Cris

[Ygrec23]

Originally Posted by justdontknow

There are some days where I am so discouraged, I feel helpless. When I can think rationally and logically, I know I am not helpless, but today I feel that way. So many things have gone wrong and I hate it. Even the youngers (littles) feel my helplessness and they are scared. It makes them cry which makes me feel even worse. I guess I am just asking for some encouragement which is hard for me to do. Cris

Hi, Cris, I'm right in the same place this instant and was so yesterday, will be so for the rest of today. Tomorrow, who knows? All I do know is that this won't last forever. Unless there's something to do that is absolute, top-grade important that has to be done NOW this minute, then cut loose, hang back, use your resources to (1) cut yourself loose from the helplessness feeling, and (2) relax into a mini-vacation in your head. Run around in that vacation (or sleep) and after a while (a day or two) you won't feel so helpless, so put upon. You can't keep pushing, pushing, pushing all the time. You have to rest and get your strength back. The work we people do on our heads or with our heads is exhausting and it's worse than when people without mental problems do it. You deserve a break. Take one now. Take care!

[kasva]

hi cris....i know that feeling.just try to remember this too shall pass. i hope to see krista in the littles soon...welll...my littles really really like her. good luck!.......kasva and littles

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((justdontknow))))

Thank you for posting. I hear you and am listening. I feel lost today and that feeling of discouraged screams louder than anything right now. I am so sorry you are feeling this way. I know that with time and continued reaching out and looking within these feelings can lift. But right now they are strong and feel so heavy on ones heart.

Please know that we care and are here for you. Listen to your heart and know that you are not alone. I am sorry that the littles feel it too and are scared. But I do get that too. Please keep reaching out and asking for what you need. I am proud of you for asking what you can. I know it is hard to do that.

I understand how the littles crying can make us feel bad, but by you reaching out here you are helping yourself and helping them. Do something kind for yourself Chris, you deserve it. That rational and logical thinking will come back. Sometimes we are hardest on ourselves and even though we do not deserve that we learned it well.

Chris, do you have positives written anywhere? We have a journal for positives and on days like today we get it out and whether we can write a single other positive down, we sign and date the journal and read what is already there. It allows us to read even when we are feeling so down and out, but to re-iterate what we know to be true but just cannot feel right now.

Keeping it separate from other journaling so that it is not sabatoged by the feelings we are haing right now that will lift once again. When we are not feeling so bad we can then write more positives within that journal so that when times like this hit again we can once again go back and date when we just read. But the "just reading" can seep in a little at a time creating hope amongst the others and yourself.

Do take care of yourself hon. Know that we care and are listening and hearing you. Keep reaching you are not alone. Sending you gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps

[Lillyleaf]

Cris,
One day I was up set and you told me that it was going to be ok. I said that it wasnt and everyone no matter how old seemed to be still putting them selfs to gether and it didnt get better. You said you are trying to put your self together and it was going to be ok. Remember that. Then I wasnt thinking I just saw what I wanted to in a way. But I look and see evveryone is always trying to put them selfs back together but in all honesty in some ways that is what makes life worth while. When you are always happy you dont see how beautiful things are in the same way. I am here for you 100% and I have no doubt things will be better. The gole isnt just for you to make your or anyone to make them selfs perfict and to be compleatly ok but just so that they can have a life worth living. I dont come out much anymore but I thought I needed to say and you needed to hear this. There is hope. It will be ok. Hang in there. I know sometimes you seem to your self so messed up but dont compare your self to anyone else because it is not fair. We are all messed up at the same leval just in diffrent ways. from rich to poor from little to big we are all the same and all diffrent. it will be alright hang in there... know there is hope.

Hope
~Lilly

[Nupoet64]

((((((Chris))))).....we are here and listening. Many safe hugs and much support your way.....we care....

[justdontknow]

Thank you all for giving me hope. I am appreciative and it does help. I hope that I will be feeling better soon and knowing that you are all here is comforting.

Cris

[Rhiannonsmoon]

Cris you are here for others and now that you are in need they are here for you as we are here for you

Allow yourself time and the littlies will strengthen and will see that you are having feelings and know that they are normal feelings within the boundaries of your illness have some faith that all will go well and you will see the mist lift and your way will be clear your path straight before you as it should be

For the help you give to others your path forward is assured and though you will have times like this where you feel lost and with no safety rope to hold you will come out of it stronger and knowing how to help others, one of the things you do so very well

Offering you our friendship and support

Heleni

[justdontknow]

Thanks again everyone. I hope this feeling passes soon and that I will be able to be okay with myself soon.

Cris

[Gr3tta]

Hi Cris! (nice to see you again, by the way!) We hate feeling helpless and discouraged. Feelings we know all too well. We can sometimes feel better if we remember all the things that we do control, and embrace those. Like we are in control our home, we can keep in clean (or messy sometimes!) decorate it how we want, set the heat or air at the temperature we want. Sometimes little things like that help us. Hope you will be feeling better very soon! ~ Emma

[Eriksplus]

Hello Cris and all, we're just letting you know we care!

(Yeston)Erik and all of Eriksplus