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Being boxed in and losing time isn't our only feelings we have any more.
We always feared big crowds and crowded highways, but now more than
ever, things seem more fake. We often wonder now if we just started
walking and never stopped until we get tired if things would feel better
to us. We like companionship with others that share our same feelings,
but sometimes being around others is too much for us to handle. We
feel stupid a lot with other people or very intelligent, but we know
they all think we are stupid just the same. We care less and less to
interact with other people including family. We don't tell them cause we
don't want to hurt anybody's feelings. Maybe we should just walk away
and leave everything behind, we don't know yet. We have mood shifts but for each shift in mood ther is always a reason. The voices we live with
are very uncomfortable around people when they give us advice. We think
for the most part, others don't understand us. Our memory has been a
little better for the most part and most of our pain has subsided. It
was a shock to our family when we told them that we were always
depressed the other day. They didn't take it well. That's what we hate
so much, they all act like it's their fault or that we are acting
foolishly. We can never explain or say anything to help them understand
us. The past has started recycling in our thoughts again constantly.
For all that we once were and all that we have done for others, we now
understand that none of it matters. For all we know, others probably
think we take advantage of them. We wish we could just fade away. We
know we're being selfish cause others tell us that they care and maybe
they're doing their best to show us, but somehow it's being lost in us.
LJ, Spirit, and Little man thinks that we are just depressed but
Carolyn, Rage, and the Shrunken heads think we are doing the best we can do and we keep getting shot down by others. The voices in the background agree that we should walk away. We really aren't important to anyone, meaning nobody's life should change if we go away and the voices say that it really doesn't matter. We each feel the pieces of our heart shifting in the hopeless dark and maybe there's not really a way out for us.
We know that we have lost our family's respect because they don't
think we try hard enough for anything anymore. Everyone has an opinion
that tells us that we don't try hard enough anymore, but they don't see
us and they don't see the things we try to do. Maybe we are just
confused by the rules of the game. Maybe if everyone stopped believing
that we exist, we would just fade away like a dream. Whatever happens,
we know that we will continue to exist. Writing about it isn't making
anything better. So we'll just be quiet now. Sorry this is so long and
sorry if it bothers anyone. We just thought typing it would help.

Spirit
reading on my laptop, I read where you have typed here. I know you say comments are not needed, so I am just stopping by to say I am reading.

(((((Fadedspirit)))))...So sorry you are feeling down. Many safe hugs and I am reading and here...

(((((((((( fadedspirit ))))))))))))

I'm sorry you are feeling this way. I understand how hard it can be sometimes to feel like you fit in and to get others to understand what's going on with you. It's hard on everyone hon...you and you family as well. Everyone wants to have the right answers and of course, if they don't live your life, then they really don't know what the right answers are. Do you feel you have all the answers for your issues too? I'm guessing probably not.

The good thing about getting advice from folks is that we can choose to accept the things that may apply to us and disregard the rest

It sounds like you are trying to isolate yourself faded and I would hate to see that happen. Isolation is not a good place to be and can be more harmful to you than continuing to try to live your life and have connection with folks.

I hope that you can find some kind of relief and I hope I didn't say anything wrong here that upset you. Please take good care of yourself, you do matter and you are worthy of friends and connections

With Care,
sabby

(((((( fs ))))))

((((fadedspirit))))

Just wanted you to know we are here and do care. Maybe there was no comments necessary, but we wanted to reply. You are not alone my friend even though it feels alone. We do hear you and we do care. So many times nothing makes sense, nothing seems to come together. But you are making sense my freind.

I know that feeling of not fitting in and not belonging is strong, but where is that mold that makes one fit in? Who is getting to tell us where we fit in and where we do not? Leaving it to the ones that did this is not where that decision lies. It lies within each one of us making our own way out of the lies and deceit we have all been through.

The truth is you do belong and you do fit in. Maybe we are like the misfit toys that was on an animated Christmas show left on an island stranded because they were broken or missing a part or not painted just right. But those toys made a difference to boys and girls who would otherwise have none.

I think we all make a difference to each other giving strength and support, encouragement and hope where it seemed to never have been before. We are all different which makes us unique. We come together where we have felt we never belonged to begin to belong here. We understand each other in ways others cannot or simply refuse to understand.

We accept one another for how we are and offer hope where sometimes hope never was. Reaching out at times when it seems no one is there and caring for another who is hurting. Sometimes when it feels no one is around there is always someone that reaches back with understanding, a hug, and/or a hand of friendship so we know we are not all alone.

Please know that we care faded and are here for you. Keep reaching. I hope you know how much you mean to us and many here. You have touched many through your words and caring too. Sending you gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps

Sabby,
You haven't done or said anything that upsets or offends us. You are right though. We've been trying to isolate ourselves for a very long time. Although it makes no sense to most humans, we must isolate ourselves sometimes to avoid losing control of where we are. We don't know why some humans like to disrespect us, our space, and our thoughts, but often what we think to other humans doesn't matter. We aren't looking for right answers, we are just tired of the finger pointing and self-blaming, and rudeness when others irl don't know how to make things better. It should be common sense that guilt trips, blaming others, and made up answers to make someone feel differently is very rude and offensive to everyone. We know that people will never change and sometimes that's why we need our isolation. We hope we haven't come off as offensive here, we are just explaining about how we feel. Thanks for your hugs n advice sabby.

((((pegasus)))) thanks

((((DPS)))) Thanks.

Thanks for reading (((Hunny))) and (((Nupoet)))

fadedsirit I am Heleni I read your message with sadness for you I have watched Rhiannon become more and more isolated and since there was little I thought I could do to help her I just watched

I now am here because I can help and if there is anything I can do for you listen or talk I am happy to do it

Isolation feels good while it is happening because you draw away from those who hurt you but in the longer plan it is harmful because you draw further and further away and the very people who can help you can not get past the isolation

I hope you recover well from this

Heleni

We're sorry you are feeling this way!

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(Hill)Erik

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