what does it matter?

lately we just have a feeling of what does it matter do we matter does anyone really really care or give a damn about us? we dont feel safe posting for so so so so many reasons but after something that happened earlier-and not here before anyone gets all defensive and runs to report us-we just really stopped caring ourselves not even sure where we are going with this or what we want we probably dont want anything so if nobody replies it really doesnt mattwre anyway this month is kicking our butts and thats just the tip of the iceberg our huge iceberg we suck we know we suck and thats just the way it is for us we cant be this wonderful syrupy martyr who is selfless and gives and gives and gives oh the hell with it were done and shutting up now

if this aint apropriate were sure it wil get moved so whatevr is ok

listening and caring

thank for listenigneven tho we say nothng wrthwile

(((TrinityDancer))) - sorry you're going through a sad stage and it's fine to let lose and complain. Be extra caring to yourself - eating well, going for walks, taking time to relax and time for fun. Taking care of yourself will re-energize yourself. I hope you feel better soon dear person.

Yes, taking care of yourself and yes, Trin, you deserve to live a good life of healing. There is nothing you have to do to attain it except go to your therapy and look after yourself and keep close to the Light. Sometimes when I get close to a healing, projecting on others is what I have to go through first. Lyn is on the right track for all of us, it's going to be okay. You deserve to have healing, body mind and spirit. When I put it on someone else I don't have to look at it in my own life. I kind of use it as a defense not to have to look at me. It is a way to stay stuck for me. Been there done this too Trinity. If you feel like fleeing or attacking you're probably on the right track. Sometimes the unknown scares us so much we don't want to go there and being healed is unknown in the area we may be working on, else we wouldn't be working on it.

Take care.

Hugs Trin... I agree with Lynn take care of YOU.

((((Trin))))
The things you have to say - even the negative things - are worthwhile. It's important to express those feelings so that they don't overwhelm you. YOU are worthwhile.

(((Trinity)))
We are here for you...

(((((Trinity)))))...I am saddened that you feel so alone and defeated. We are here to offer support adn listening to your pain...many hugs...having needs is ok..it is human....we all have needs....please take care of you....

I'm glad you are not a syrupy martyr who is selfless and gives and gives and gives. That would be pretty dysfunctional and kind of suck. You don't need to be that kind of person. Sounds like everything is really REALLY hard for you right now. When we feel like crap one of the best things we can do for ourselves is not pretend that we feel syrupy sweet nice things instead. Sometimes us human beings - especially those with a trauma history and DID - just feel like crap. It's ok to feel and be that way. I don't mean that feeling like crap is a good thing, because it's not - it's actually really crappy, and i am truly sorry that you feel so bad right now, but

I AM saying it's okay for you to feel and express that here, if that is how it is for you. You don't need to pretend something else.
I really hope things improve for you soon.

so so sorry my dear that things are going downhill at the moment. is it something in the air this year?! have had so much $h*t hit the fan this year personally had to remove the fans.

but each day when i wake up, before opening the door to venture out, i say these words: patience, perseverence. some days they even work!

seriously, will "pray" and am sending healing thoughts and a relief from the pain to you. take care. you are important and you really matter.



Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word happy would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness. It is far better to take things as they come along with patience and equanimity. - Carl Jung

ya know, my prblm mostly is caring if anyone really cares or gives a damn!!!! most likely the answer is maybe but is it truely enough to sattisfy me? No. My expectations of others Im thinking runs very high which I hate much!!!! How bout you?

thanks everyone we havent been able to get online for a few days and the end of the month is coming and so things all aroound are intensifying by the minute it seems we arent even functioning in full capacity and we wanted to thank whoever it was that said theyre glad we arent some syrupy selfless martyr becauase thats not something we could ever be we want to thank everyone who replied it helps ease the pain a little thanks a lot ♥

((((TrinityDancer)))))

It is good you are feeling cared about again at least on this forum and I am glad that from what you wrote below that whatever is troubling you is from your situation and not from anyone here on PC, including me. Sometime the H used to call us a 'do gooder, in a mean way. It was a way of controlling us.'

Is there a way for you to alleviate some of the home life issues that create this burden for you at this time of the month? Perhaps people can give you suggestions here. From each individual here there is a different perspective and one thing someone writes may be what you are looking for.



Hunny

Hang in there, Trinity. Often, you know, when things take a turn like this, something is changing, and it doesn't have to be for the worst. It's just that any change and any healing is hard and stressfull (after this operation, I got to learn that all over again!) what you have to say is worth something to people here, even if we don't always answer, or feel that we can say soemthing that might help. It's good that you felt you could get on the boards and rant a bit! Better out than in. take care of yourself, dear, and I hope you start feeling better soon.

Trinity my friend...you know I'm here for you and always will be.

Lady

(((((((((TrinityDancer))))))))))))

We are here for you.

((((((((((( TrinityDancer )))))))))))

really appreciating all the support this week is soooooooooooooo bad

Hold on Trinity....
we are here for you

((((( Trinity )))))
You WILL get through this, and you have a lot of support from your friends here.

I agree with the others... just hang in until the days pass. Breathe...one foot in front of the other. That's good stuff for now.

hi trin. i am sending you strength and peaceful energy. you do have a lot of support here. it will be ok, and you will get through this week. i think you are great. keep taking in all this support from your friends here. we are here for you. take care.

CANT do this anymore!

Standing by you TrinityDancer...