found my breaking point

i am so tired. i need a break. i just can't take it anymore. everyone wants to much from me. i can't deal with anyone else anymore. i'm so tired and frustrated that i want to sit in the corner and scream. just feel like know one around here helps me any. they say it's going to be ok. and then don't do anything to help me. i can't keep working full time for nothing. and then trying to deal with everything inside that's to much to deal with. been having lots of flashbacks and memories. just crazy things. fred dead said if i give him $5 he'll move into his own place. maybe if i give him $5 he'll move out from my head and into my feet or something. i can't take work, my sick brother that i love more then life it's self, my own sickness ( which is triggered by stress, been in lots of pain today) and then everything that goes around in my head. this is it i can't take anymore if one more person says anything to me i'll just freak out. if i show up for work the rest of this week it well be a miricle cause i'm just losing my mind. think i understand the concept of a nervous breakdown. cause i'm about to just snap. t.g. for xanax or i would of lost it already.
monty

I wish I could do something more to help than just listen here and say you are understood.

It's hard. I'm sorry there is no magic except to listen.

{{{{{ Monty }}}}}

You need some rest.

You have too much stuff goin' on.

Please take good care.

Petunia

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sometimes it's one second at a time, sweetie. i know your seconds are passing slowly.

please be safe right now.

love ya,

kd

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Please be safe

Caroline et al

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I wish I could offer more than a hug. Please try to take care of yourself.

-Jennifer-

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Please stay safe,
Fuzzy

montygirl, if i could, i'd come and take all the pain. i do send strong thoughts of support and love. pat

Thank you everyone for the hugs and care. It does mean a lot to me to see everyone. Nothings changed, Just another day that's gone and another day that I've fallen deeper into this hole. Feel like curling up and just crying. Don't think it would make any bit of difference. I don't know why I get out of bed in the morning. Oh I know why I get out. All the nightmares. dummy me Which is the lesser evil??? Sleeping vs. Wake Think I'll do like Buddy does and climb up inside my couch. Think they will find me? I can't find me, so how the hell is anyone else suppose to find me.

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i'm so sorry that you're having to go through this. i wish i could do something. my offer to PM still stands and i am happy to chat with you anytime you need/want it.

is there any free time to maybe take a few seconds for yourself? fix yourself something good and comforting to eat or drink and curl up on the couch or bed and just be. not sleep and not try to think through your problems... just be and maybe listen to some music or watch a funny movie. anything to help release some of the tension that's adding to your pain.

demand a little bit of 'you' time. you deserve it. and from what i've read it sounds like you really need it.

take care.
-shadow