breaking point

i'm tired of this all. i really cant take anymore. cant understand why i keep going. to the point i have to shut down and turn off. i'm so tired i cant keep going. feel like i've been backed into a corner and paraniod of everything. everyone is out to hurt me.

((((((((((((((((((((((((( monty ))))))))))))))))))))))))))

is hubby aware? you remember when you need to call t, right? i so understand, and you may have to do just that...take some time to "shut down". i've done that so many times when i couldn't move after so much. it regains the massive resources lost.

please let us know. know you're loved and being thought about.

kd

TY everyone for the hugs. I'm just to overwhelmed by everything right now. my T and back up T are both out of town on vacation and I'm not comfortable talking to the T they left me with. I just don't know him or even what he looks like.
i'm floating. just not aware of anything right now. is like i'm air. just not in a good way. i'm so paraniod. think everyone is talking about me and laughing at me. even my husband. i'm almost scared to be with him. feel like everyone hates me so much. and that they can't stand to even look at me. and like they think i'm so ugly they are stairing. just not good right now.

Monty,

Remember things will return to stable soon. It must be really difficult for you to have both T s gone at the same time.

Keep focused on the fact that it will get better soon. Your T will return and you will come back to you.

This is temporary situation that you are feeling now.

pm if you need to.

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just try to relax.. I know that this is easier said than done but I promise people are not out to get you. Sometimes it feels that way but try talking to someone that your really trust like a friend or relative.. I hope you feel better

monty
hi,
this is like it feels like a breaking point - we've all been to those points where the breaks happen- but maybe its just more of a really hard bending point- your really being made to bend and be very uncomfortable for this time that your Ts are away- but theres so much room here to bend and not break. This is a very flexible place to bend into and out of in the forum with support.
(even though you feel sore later)