[kimmydawn]

I hurt...so much.

((((((((((((kimmydawn))))))))))))

*sending prayers your weight to catch those tears*

[kimmydawn]

Thank you so much (((((((((((((((EV))))))))))))))))

bucket's full already. i appreciate it so much.

[Mahali]

kd,

Tonight you hurt and I feel so badly for your pain. I wish I could take it all away. Every piece of hurt you have ever had.

It seems that no matter your own pain you reach out to help others. You are such a sweet person always.

[kimmydawn]

Thank you for such kind words (((((((((((((((place)))))))))))))))))

I try so hard. I really do. I wish I could ease the pain for so many. Thank you for sending me the same wish.

Sometimes we just have to feel it and it hurts. Sometimes I want to hide and there's nowhere to hide. Sometimes I just gotta cry.

Thank you again,

KD

[Mahali]

I know what you are saying and it is true. All the good wishes are great and appreciated but the pain sometimes just has to be felt. I guess that is part of healing. The feeling it I mean. It stinks.

It is little comfort to know you are getting better as you seem to be hurting more. Ironic don't you think?

[kimmydawn]

Yes, so true! I keep saying, "and this is supposed to be what better is?" It's hard.

The end results are starting to be seen though in the form of a shared experience...with the pain is also joy and awareness of self. The pain, pain that was never known, let alone felt, is so foreign. It almost physically hurts, if that makes sense.

There is a comfort even in the pain and crying. It feels so...real, thorough, complete. I can't think of an appropriate word for it. I can't set it off to the side. I can't bury it deep. It's right up here with me...all through me...felt by all of me.

Thank you again for understanding what I'm saying and feeling.

KD

[Mahali]

Many hugs to you to help weather this round.

[LILITH]

My heart goes out to you so sorry that you are in pain. May you find peace and joy in the coming days.
Lilith

[Fuzzybear]

Thinking of you tonight and hurting along with you in my bear way (a bad time for many grrrrrrr and I can't seem to escape the "bad" stuff)
I see a lot of positives (and growth) in your posts and in you despite your pain.....
I wish you everything that is good ((((((((((((((Kimmy))))))))))))))

[wanttoheal]

(((((((((((((((((Kim))))))))))))))) I'm sorry for your pain. I am here for you.

[jmo531]

((((((((((((((((((((((((KD)))))))))))))))))))))))

I am so sorry you are hurting.


Big huggles,


Jen

It makes alot of sense (((((((((((((Kimmydawn)))))))))))))). My memories come first by way of nightmares and flashbachs then as we learn more the physical momories hit. A couple years ago the worse pain I had ever felt hit. and it went on for about two weeks and no matter what I did all I could do was curl up in a ball with a heating pad trying to stay warm and connected to something other than the pain.. I hope I never feel that kind of pain again, but realistically I know that for complete healing to take place I have to let myself feel the things that happened in the past as well as what is happening now in the present. I remember that pain only too well. I know hugs dont help in making the pain go away but Im here for you to hang on to until it passes..(((((((((((Kimmydawn))))))))))

(((((((((Kimmydawn))))))))))
we're here listening. it's so hard to feel the pain. it's harder if you are in pain and think you're alone. we see you are not alone and we are here too. we know you are here for us.
be gentle with yourself and know that arms are wrapped around you and you are safe.
the constellation

[silver_queen]

(((((((((((((((( Kimmy ))))))))))))))))))

I'm so sorry you're hurting .

[hillbunnyb]

Oh KD, hope you made it through the night in one piece. All the pressure you've been under with hubby's injury..... no wonder to me that it got to you one way or the other... darn.

I wish I could send you my hands, in giant form, cupped like a clam, making a warm, safe, cave for you to climb into and take a break.

[kimmydawn]

((((((((((((((((((place))))))))))))))))))

thank you again so much for hearing me and letting me know that someone, somewhere understands what it is I'm trying to say. It's so hard to explain. Thank you for being my friend, and for caring.

Please know that all of you is cared for...so much. The pain is still close but not as intense this morning. It's not touching me but I can still feel its affect. It's just like a cloud that's hanging over my head and I'm praying that it doesn't descend.

Love,

KD

[kimmydawn]

(((((((((((((lilith)))))))))))))))))))

Thank you so much. I hope for a peace of some kind soon as well.

I hope that for us all.

Thank you again,

KD

[kimmydawn]

((((((((((((((((((fuzziestbear))))))))))))))))))))

we'll support each other right through our individual hurts, pains and fears. Thank youf for being here for me. Know that I'll "stop and listen" for you.

KD

[kimmydawn]

((((((((((((((((((Wantto)))))))))))))))))))))

Thank you so much. Your "being here" is a huge blessing for me. I've had so many reach out to me and it's getting me through this round.

Thanks again,

KD

[kimmydawn]

(((((((((((((((((Jen))))))))))))))))))

Thank you very much. Thank you for caring and letting me know that you do.

I think you're so special, friend.

KD

[kimmydawn]

thank you (((((((((((((((((myself)))))))))))))))))) You always share. Thank you for that.

What I was/am feeling wasn't physical. It was emotional pain so intense that it almost felt physical. I've not yet experienced physically pain memories (that I'm aware of). I have had other types of "body memories", though...whew!

I'm strange in the realm that I don't have dreams/nightmares either. Well, I'm told that I have them, I just never remember. I think that's a blessing for me? Saying that though, makes me realize that I had not one but two dreams this week. I might remember one dream per year. Interesting...

I'm sorry for you went through there...for what so many of us go through. Thank for sharing and caring...once again.

Peace,

KD

[kimmydawn]

(((((((((((((((((the constellation)))))))))))))))))))))

Thank you so much for letting me know that I'm not alone. That's when it gets the worst for me. That's when I initially sought out, then found, PC. When I mix that kind of pain with the feeling of being utterly and totally alone and not understood, it's almost too much to bare. You, and those at PC, have helped me so much with that. It's helping me even now to read the posts again and again. I'm really not alone, am I? I'm so sorry that you all can relate, but my blessing is that you do.

Thank you so much, and yes, I am here for you. I've been slack because of so much change and dealing with specific issues, but I am here for you all.

KD

[kimmydawn]

(((((((((((((((((((((((silver))))))))))))))))))))))))

What would I do without you and your loving strength? You are so soothing to me. I hope that I can offer 1/100'ths of what you do me.

Thank you for caring.

KD

[kimmydawn]

Hillbunny said:

Oh KD, hope you made it through the night in one piece. All the pressure you've been under with hubby's injury..... no wonder to me that it got to you one way or the other... darn.

I wish I could send you my hands, in giant form, cupped like a clam, making a warm, safe, cave for you to climb into and take a break.


What a beautiful picture of peace you gave me! Thank you so much for that. It was immediately calming to me!

Yes, I've been going through alot here in IRL. It's been very hard. Also, I'm having increased awareness regarding my life and the abuses/actions. It's so difficult to see right now. Awareness is a good thing in the long run, but right now it bites.

Thank you for coming here and sharing you...a very special you.

Kd