It's time! I think i'm going to throw up

I m crying. I m afraid. I think I belong here. This is not happening. I m going to throw up. Shhhhhh they re fighting me. Angry angry sal. Soooo much tension building. If I continue to let them come
Come out will I lose my mind? Sal is angry but I am doing it anyway. It all makes sense. To. Much pressure behind my ears I m going to be sick. Mo ment of truth forbidding me. The pressure. You can t see me so keep going. Who are all these children what do you want why now. Why can t you speak? I see my hands but they are not attached to me. I am not typing this. So WMO are you? Slogans I am the keeper. You are mighty. I am scared.

I’m sorry you feel so bad. Is there something you like to do that makes you feel calm? Being calm is important. The more upset we get the more out of control things become.

(((Hug)))

When I tried to tell someone what is happening in the last couple of days there is so much pressure behind my ears and I feel like there is a battle of wills inside me. My head hurts and I want to be sick. But is real isn t it? I don t want it to be! I haven t told anyone. It is happening too fast. I was typing in a different name all together and slogans came out! Wow I don t know if I can handle what I am going to have to face. I can t even seem to type my sentences and thoughts properly. I can t imagine how going forward and daily life is going to be. This has been building and coming to a head for the last year. Loosing any control I guess i thought I had. I prayed. Felt relief then fell asleep. Woke up. Now realizing yes it's real. I m too tired to deal with this! So much wasted life! I don t want to waste any more on having to deal with any of this. What about my husband? What's he gonna think? I don t want to lose him. But either way I m too out of control he may just up and walk. It's not fair! Why does it have to be a fight either way? What happened to me? I am a stranger. I don t recognize me. I don t remember 80 percent of my life. I m going to be sick

Hi Feeling alone,
Do you have a therapist or someone you can talk to? I know this sounds strange but sometimes the harder you try with this the worse it gets. Do you journal? Journaling helps a lot of us.
We (PC) are here if you need people to listed

No therapist yet. Who do you tell? I want to tell my husband but I m sooooo ashamed. I ve disappointed him some much in life as it is. I want to tell him but the words don t come out and it's like I couldn t even if I wanted to. He has been my best friend for 22 years. Through all the craziness and now? Sal will be angry. He is so angry for just being in here. He is almost always coming out any more. I hardly can keep any control. He isn t trying to push my husband away! Oh my God I did not write the word isn t, it was is! Anything I write takes for ever because I reread and what I wrote was not what I am saying in my head. Half sentences twice or double words too. Then there's all the pressure in my head. Like I m trying to push and push but I can t get where I want to be. Please does this make sense? Then comes the nausea. Please am I losing my mind? Is this where I need to be because don t know where to ask questions

Yes, when there is a lot of switching or internal turmoil a lot of us get headaches and can get sick to our stomachs as well as other physical feelings. These feelings may or may not respond to normal medications. If I am having a 'parts headache' I don't bother to take aspirin or anything like that because for me it doesn't work. I use a prescribed anti anxiety that can sometimes help. But soothing activities will often help a lot too.
Is there a way to let everyone take turns writing to let out some of the pressure? Have you tried asking them what they want?

Some people around me know some don't. Some I told, others figured it out. Some I have told and got crappy responses... everyone takes it differently.

Paul weak sal angry slogans ohhhhh slogans is Allysha. iPad change to. She hates all weak she is evil and wants them pay.she angry spite devil. Brian is fake smile oblivious Josephine cries for mommy

Dear FeelingA and all:

Some part within you wrote above:

Quote:

..."I reread and what I wrote was not what I am saying in my head"...

I have had these thoughts before.

I am wondering...

Are you under some unusual stress in you life or is it just day in and day out and the other question I am wondering is, do you have some calming skills, like Omers was writting about?

Lol stress??? No. No stress here!!! What's to stress about? Finding out you have alters? Nope that can t be it. Telling my husband! Nope that can t be it. Earlier in the week he already met some. Having him say your ok. Nope that's not it. He met more tonight and fell asleep during talk. Nope that's not it. Feeling like this is all just a dream or cruel joke. Nope that's not it. Nope no stress here! They I see it is, I created these " persons " then I will get rid of them. One way or another it's ridiculous so I gave them life now I will take it away. I wish all of you well. Good luck. But for me I am not willing to put my kids through this nor witness this insanity. I want for them to have positive memories. I have choices and I choose to be free. I m too tired to go through any more. It's not worth the battle. I don t care. Ask yourself who truly truly cares? Really? Then good for you. Reality check for me. Lol once again I m the last to know and jokes on me!!

I'm so sorry you are feeling so bad.
I hope you manage to talk to someone and get some help.
Take care.

Feeling Alone- I can not say I honestly can fully relate- but please- talk with your family. I am sure you husband can give you some support. And talk to your therapist if you have one. Stay on PC and talk with others.

I wish you well and good thoughts your way.