[Lillyleaf]

Hello,
I was wondering if anyone had this happen to? LIke you feel like you are living a lie, something you believe to be real just isnt there. Not like seeing something or believing something that has happend that isn't real, but a feeling. Like you thought you felt scared, but you weren't? I dont know it's hard to exsplain.
Sometimes I find myself just out of it and on autopilot, and when that happends how I see things compleatly changes. Like I go back to believing all the misconseptions as I child that i believed then.

Just wondering if that happend to anyone else,
Thanks,

~Lillyleaf~

[babycds]

I think I know what you are talking about. I feel like that all the time. Like one day I'm going to wake up and everything's going to be twisted and there are people bigger than us just playing with our emotions. Or like I think that this is all a dream and I'm going to wake up out of a coma or surgery. I guess sometimes we default on those feelings because we have in explainable emotions. I hope I helped (?)

xoxox babycds(:

[Crew]

I think that is extremely "normal." I think we all do this, maybe hoping it will be a lie . I know I did that and still do. One day you maybe certain that you were abused and the next you find yourself doubting whether your experiences counts?
For me, the process of doubt to reaffirmation, or 'lie' over and over, is a natural part of the healing process. Or am I way way off from what your trying to say?

I hope not

Great ? btw

Crew

[Korin]

I went through a very low point where I was very sad at the thought that no one really knows me nor will they ever really know me - even the people I love and who love me - they don’t know me they just think they do.

No one knows about the world within. I have mentioned a few things to someone close, like a kind of test, but I only succeeded in frightening them so I drew back and have never tried to get anyone else to understand except for on forums like this one. So yes it does feel like I’m living a lie.

[Gr3tta]

sometimes everything is a lie or sometimes everythilng might be we're not sure but thank you fior sharing

[Crew]

know what we believe ((((Lillyleaf)))))))?

I think as were healing things get overwhelming or so many memories but say none with _______. (whomever that hurt you) and at times we feel as though we may not be really multiple... and that we may feel as though were living a lie.

Back off and keep those memories you have worked through safe and what we do is CHOOSE to go into denial versus telling myself were living a lie.
For my system I know that when we used to say were living a lie, my old T would say "whoa... hang on there Crew, she said when I tell myself I'm living a lie that may take away those parts inside that don't believe there memories are a lie. So my advice to you is to allow yourself to go into denial before saying your living a lie.

We have parts now that we have found and when everyone comes together and shares there part of the memory that memory eventually works out and we have found it wasn't a lie in which we called it one.

Does this make any sense at all? I all I hope you hear is that NO, we don't think your living a lie but that is our opinion.... ((((Lillyleaf)))) and we care so much about you!
Hang in there and call for help if you need it,
Crew