[Monty_girl]

Just so very sad. I told T the other night that I was sad. He asked why? Said because I don't think that I'm needed anymore and that one day soon I feel like I will be gone. He said but aren't you the "m" of your group? Said yes, but after awhile children don't need their "m" as much. This is how I'm feeling. That I'll be blended soon. As T say's, My color will be blended into the white paint. Making a new color.

I'm sad because I feel this coming on soon. But yet I'm not really upset, just sad.

Maybe this is all a good thing. What I've been working towards these last 6 years. Being a person. Never felt like a person. With feelings and thoughts. Maybe I will get that??

Right now it's almost 2am and I'm in physical pain again.
Maybe my thinking of my sadness is what's hurting.

Monty

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I'm sure i have no idea how it must feel, but i wanted you to know that I care !

[kimmydawn]

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you're loved and cared for.

KD

[January]

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Hugs,

Jan

((((((Monty))))))
Our T said we never go away. I don't know about blending, she didn't say that. She said I will always be needed and am real important to the system. And will never ever go away. Can't. Not possible.
I am sure you are still needed. Children ALWAYS need their "M".
If your T says you will make a new color and it will be a special color then you are really needed to do that, right?? You won't go away or dissapear and you are needed--I think so anyway.
Vicki

Monty girl- my blog here explains what happened to me when some of my memory pieces blended together. The memories are still all there, and I still remember that they were once separated. You're therapist is right they can't leave or go away. They will always be with you. The only difference is you will not have to lose time and be triggered to think about those memories. Take care.

[Mahali]

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Thinking of you and wishing you well.