I remember flying out of my body. I truly believed I could do it. I could fly out of my body and watch it - but I can't remember what was happening to my body while I flew away. All I remember is that I loved being able to fly. I loved being able to go right up, above the trees and into the clouds. I can remember the sense of freedom.

I only just remembered this. It came out of nowhere and, like other memories, it is so clear. It's so clear I can't understand how I forgot this for so long. I don't understand how I forgot that wonderful feeling of flying, of being free, of being away from it all. At some point in my childhood I stopped being able to do it and I can remember that I felt sad.

[kimmydawn]

(((((((((((((((((((caroline))))))))))))))))))))))

KD

Thank you kimmy.
I'm scared.
I don't understand what all this means. I'm scared what it might mean.

[fgh]

<font color="purple"> Hello. We like to fly too. nona has a cloud that the doctor gave her and she lets me on it oo. It feels safe up high so no body can get us. jj.

I float out of my body too. I call my floating La La Land because theres music and clouds and a tree and some grass.. Its my mental safe place. I am not afraid of it or the knowledge that I do this. I actually felt special and happy that I had la la land because growing up others didn't have a la la land that I knew of. It was my special place all my own. I learned to control my floating by researching the subject of relaxation and kind of working backwords by learning how to slow myself down so that instead of just going and floating I could recognize how I was doing it and pull myself back from it.

All the information about my la la land and how I did this is in my blog.

Thank you fgh.

I don't fly any more.

It scared me remembering it all so vividly and after so long.

Hi myself

I have safe places I can sometimes get to as well. They are not the same as this memory. In this memory I actually flew. Way up in the sky. My safe plaes I walk through and sit in and hear stuff but I can't fly. This was real flying. And I could see my body while I was flying. When I am in my safe place I don't see my body, I am there. When I was flying I could see my body lying where I left it.

My first recognition that I could float and had la la land was when I was little. I was in my bedroom and had locked the door one minute I was crying on the bed looking out the window wishing I could float away with the clouds and the next I was floaty sitting at the window and looking at my body still on the bed then I heard my sister pounding on the door, the next thing I know I was opening the door and trying to tell my sister what happened.(the full explaination of my experience is in my blog. This used to happen to me every time I went into my la la land. Its like the entrence to my la la land because I have to float through the silvery wall of my la la land. Another word I use for this feeling is my tunnel area because everything when I look back at the physical word my body and everything else it looks far away like Im in a tunnel.

I gained control of this feeling by using relaxation books that explained how to relax and little by little by ng into my tunnel/la la land and coming back and breaking down how I did it by writing down what was going on step by step and matching it with the books and doing it again until I had how I went into my tunnel/la la land broken down into ten steps and then practiced coming back at each step. For example -

first I had this-
3 - here and now
2- la la land
1- ?
0 floating out of body (the books all put this level of relaxation at a deeper level than mental safe places so thats where I put it, It doesn't mean that is where it is in all dissociation systems it just means it takes more relaxation to reach that level then imagining safe places.

Then when I still couldnt control my going into la la land and floating out of my body I broke it down more my object was to reach that level 1of relaxation bypassing my la la land and not foating out of my body and at the same time I would still be semi aware - (basically hypnosis level)

10 - here and now
9 light headed
8-start floating backwards
7 start hearing my music from la la land behind me as real world looks fuzzy
6 music louder cant see or hear real world any more
5 la la land
4-music loud and floating past the silver wall
3- music fading out
2-music gone totally quiet but warm and comfortable
1- level one - self hypnotized not floating out of body but at the level where I am totally comfortable and I can find the memories I am blocking out while not in la la land so I am semi aware.
0- out of body

Then I practiced coming back -
feel light headed come back by paying attention to someones voice the furnature things around me.

start floating backwards come back by paying attention to a persons voice, things around me, the furniture I was on..

I repeated the process and after about 6 months I could still ground myself back in reality when reaching as far down as level 2. so I no longer float out of my body. I can also use this to keep myself from entering my la la land at the wrong times like when I am in any classes or meetings.

I hear you Caroline--I know exactly what you are talking about. It is scary to remember that. Was for us. I don't know what yours means or why. I know what our experience was and why we flew away--It will come when you are ready. don't push it or try to figure it out.

We still fly in our dreams, but its a good flying and it is a happy flying--no out of the body but just freedom above everything and like a bird.
w_i

thank you w_i