Entering a trauma unit

Sometime within the next two weeks I will go to my first ever trauma inpatient, a place on the east coast.

General psych units make me worse. I am terrified, because I know it will not be easy. Basically my entire psychiatric background has been me keeping my head above the water, but still fitting in below the radar. It's a constantly balance, telling just enough so I don't kill myself, but not enough to allow anyone near me. I know that I will no longer be allowed to stay below the radar, but I reassure myself knowing that I will also not have to tread water constantly, just to stay alive. My head is a system of loops, mazes, secrets and confusion. But on the outside I remain calm. I cannot keep the composure much longer.

I am glad that I have never had to go to a trauma unit before. I have come close many times. I am glad because I really wasn't ready for it and I am now. I don't think I knew to what extent I was sick before and I think finding out too early could have proved detrimental to my own mental health.

Please do keep us posted on how your doing!
We will miss you, and you will be in our thoughts!
Also i can relate, because we too do the under the radar thing, but still getting help enough to stay alive... we haven't came out and told T of this yet...
You're brave for even coming this far along in the road!
(What's a trauma unit? for me, just the name of it makes me want to back away.... but i dont know what it is.)

((((((((((((((((((((((LydiaB))))))))))))))))))))))))))) I am so glad you found somewhere to get some help. It is very brave of you. I will be thinking of you.

BB

I am happy for you lydia. you have posted in the past few weeks that inpatient was what you wanted but your treatment team would not go for it. they were focused on keeping you out patient and other uphill battles with your treatment team.

inpatient at trauma centers and mental health units did not help me and my insiders but of course everyone has their own ways they handle trauma and how they need to and choose to work on their issues.

I wish you well and I hope you have the outcome you are looking for by finally being able to go inpatient and will be thinking about you while you are gone. check in with us if you can.

Yea I think I was projecting a little about my team saying those words specifically. Apparently they never didn't wish for me to go... It was me thinking I didn't deserve it and therefore them thinking I didn't deserve it. My outpatient therapist terminated with me because I wasn't safe in the therapy... so it made it a necessity.

((((((((((((LydiaB))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Treatment centers..... if you have additional questions you can pm me.

Treatment centers are awesome and although I have not been to one's on the east coast. I have been to Torrance 3 times before Colen Ross owned it, then I was in and out of the Treatment Center in Dallas, Garland, several places and no, not ones Colen Ross does treatment at.

Just know, don't be scared. Take a fav. blanket, a stuffed animal, pictures that make you feel safe. Treament centers geared to treat a specific treatment. They don't keep you long so make sure you go in and get to work. Yes, it's alot of work yet at the same time, that work when you return home is impressive. Hopefully they will still have the anger board and activities such as that.
The will keep you buys and that is a good thing. Try no allow others (outside people) to effect your healing. Just have a drive to get better. You will have the best of the best and I wish I were going in. off to you for going and doing a daring thing.... Way to Go

and do what you need to do all the best of luck and at that!

Let us know how it went if your comfortable with that.

I am happy for you! I truly am....... Crew