[SongBirdandDaisy]

Yes, I need support. But I also need to know that I am not alone. I'm really hurting and very confused.

[SongBirdandDaisy]

Please don't fight. Dad makes everyone fight and he is everywhere. I didn't think he could find me here but I guess he did because everyone is fighting. I have to find a new place to hide.
ann

Please don't go away. It is safe here, really it is. we know how you feel about people fighting. You're not alone. pm me if you want to.

Caroline et al

[kimmydawn]

It's ok ((((((((((anne)))))))))))

We're here, listening to you, and we're not fighting.

kd

[SongBirdandDaisy]

Caroline, KD,
I'm sorry. I'm just scared and confused. It must have been pretty bad because Ann came out and she's only done that in the psychologists office. He tells me that she is 14yo and very hurt. My Dad was a bad man.

Everyone is whirling around in my head right now. I see my T tomorrow. He's wonderful and really helps me sort things out. When I told him that I finally tried this site, he had tears in his eyes - it was quite a battle to get me to budge.

I'm sorry. I'm just very, very sad right now. The others are all pulling away and questioning my judgement. They say I should go away, but for the first time since I left home 21 years ago, I feel like I belong somewhere.
Anne

Don't go anywhere, Anne. Stay here.

I'm sorry you are feeling scared. I've felt that way too. I hope you are able to talk to your T about all of this. Something I am having to learn is that I sometimes feel unsafe when actually I am quite safe. But I do understand about feeling scared by the apparent presence of anger. I do it in real life too - my husband crashes the pans around in the kitchen and I feel my whole body tense up. Memories do strange things like that to us.
((((Anne))) and (((Ann)))

[January]

Please stay. You are safe here. It's all ok.

Warm, safe hugs,

Jan

[Fuzzybear]

It can be confusing to many, including me
Who has good intentions, and who doesn't
You are safe here, though
Take care,
Fuzzy

hi ann

well, I know what you mean. the other day one of us misplaced a bunch of medication the doctor gave us, and the whole darn Rainbow crew was up in arms for the next day. Theres still a little bit of bickering going on and Baby keeps erupting in tears every so often from the crazines.

I know its tough. Its good that you are here though, and I think its a safe place. I wont try to tell you that it is a safe place directly because that is something that ultimately has to be decided by you and what is best for you. what I can tell you is that this place has become my saving grace at times, especially when I am scared, I "run" to this room, and lock the proverbian door. I grab a teddy and just stay in here posting and reading until things feel level again! So for me, it is definetly safe. And it is the one place where I can be whoever is present, and noone laughs at me or picks on me. I sitll feel just as valued if Baby comes out or if I'm around!

[bipolar_bear]

I hope that you decide to find this place safe. I like it here and am here should you ever need someone to talk to. I hope you don't feel alone anymore.

[SongBirdandDaisy]

Thank you Rainbowzz and Bipolarbear, I want to trust everyone but T said I have to use my judgement. I don't know how to do that yet. But thank you all for making me feel better. I am alone but working on letting people back in.

[Mahali]