[Evangelista]

Hi,
I go thru these loops of sort, where I feel okay for a few hours, or a day, then the anxiety sets in, and then I get the really super low, like the bottom has fallen out of my world, and that nobody cares, and just like I am soooo alone. The Little Ones are so hurt by this cycle, and become in danger because there are others inside who will know this and attack. Does anyone have these crash and burn loops. The Internals get so worked up the ending is always the same. Just need to know if anyone goes thru these, it's like getting little glimpses of Hell and it hurts so much, and I want to just curl up into a ball, and I can't talk because it hurts so much.

[kimmydawn]

I do. I'm not as familiar as you are to what's going on, and mine aren't as frequent, but FULL of emotion and I'm touching it. That's a hard one.

You're not alone.

kd

[Evangelista]

Thank you KD & Place,

It is almost like I am replying a scenario of some type. I am working on it in Therapy, but is sooo hard..I run away from the bad emotions, I like smiles and hugs, never got those growing up, but its the bad things which hurt so much, and is hard to go thru, I am trying to be gentle, but its like pulling teeth from somewhere inside, and they hide so well until we are alone.

[SongBirdandDaisy]

Evangelista,
Yes, I do to. Especially this past week. I'm just learning and it is soooo difficult. I have found this forum to be great support. I get scared because of trust and safety issues, but it has been a positive experience so far. Even through the rough stuff, I continue to learn and as long as I learn, I am alive and I survive.
Anne

Good morning.

I think i might have been in that crash and burn yesterday or the day before. things are a but foggy day wise but it sure was a high emotion level day or two which ever it was. I hate it when it happens too. The memories are well hidden some used to be now they are not what helps me is trying to remember to try to take it one step at a time and one memory at a time. If I try to take them all on at once I end up totally overwhelmed. Try breaking it down into managable steps or memory pieces. even though they are all going pell mell try working on one. When you are done with that one pick another, start out with one you already have some knowledge of what the content is and then work your way up. hang in there. The cycles are hard but with each one come strength to fight the next one. take care.