No One Here

I have not been good since leaving T last night. I had to tell him about what happened at work and he made me say it in my own words. I wanted him to read it. I know it was the right thing to do, but I could barely get the words out. I creid and sweated and shook and it was awaful . . . . . .

i'mn sorriy this a isn't wooroking fo rme tomightt

i hvae to go

im sorry hun

I am here for you though.

its not great here either

Rainbowzz

Your support at this time means more than you know.

On the way home from T Wednesday night, there were really dark ominous clouds, and right in the middle of the whole thing . . . . . . a rainbowzz! I thought of you.

It's not so bad this morning. Maybe I have enough meds in me where I'm a bit numb. Sometimes, that's the only thing to do. I don't care to take meds - but it's been pretty bad. Not so bad this morning. So, that's good.

Songbird

Fuzzy

Thanks for the hearts. I had to do some serious self-care for a day or so. Things don't look as pooh pooh as they have in the last couple of days.

Maybe a rainbow is coming?

If I get one, I'll share with you

Songbird

Well i can't bring a rainbow but I can be here for you. Hope that helps.

fuzzy white bear

You always make me smile!

I'm here, too! I'm so glad things are going better for you. Take good care of all of you.

Hugs,

Jan

My therapist LL likes me tell her things too and she does read things when I bring them in. one of the reasons she told me was because she does not have the time to read things I write (I can write pages and pages on th ings) and if a person depends solely on writing things why bother paying a therapist. a big part of therapy is the client becoming more able to voice their thoughts and problems. writing is supposed to be an activity and outlet but not as a replacement for face to face working on problems. I could do that - writing and having people read what I write and tell me what they think for free. A therapist is being paid ot LISTEN and help not just read. She had a point so now I tell her things most of the time and supliment with writing when I want to share more details of what I tell her face to face.

Sometimes I get tongtied and all I can say is - its hard to discribe or explain. When that happens I try to break it down into smaller steps instead of trying to tell her the whole thing in one conversation or sentence. that helps.

mlny

Miss Jan

It's not so bad today - and I see T this morning.

Thanks for the sparkling appearance

Myself,

I see what you say about writing. I do use my journal as a way of "getting things out" and off my mind, or a way to organize my thoughts, or express myself. I also use it to further my therapy by figuring things out, reminding myself that I am doing well and have come a long way.

Sometimes, I have difficulty "speaking" the words to T. It hurts too much to actually say it, so I have him read it, otherwise, it won't come out. I mean, there is no way some things can cross my lips. NO WAY AT ALL.

hugs,
Songbird