getting better....is weird....

Most of my little ones aged preborn to 12 years old have been integrated....is it normal to miss their laughter and chit chat ? It's too quiet....and to be honest I miss them.
I don't miss having to hold them, rock them,and help them through body memory's.

I am growing, healing and getting stronger, I have facial recognition and am aware of my surroundings now...that's been great...before peoples faces and my surroundings did not register in my brain.

I no longer have seizures or severe body pain and full moons don't trigger us anymore.We are getting better with other triggers like certain numbers,and dates on the calender . I never would have thought my System would get so healed; and integration was never an option for my System...we didn't think it could be done. We are climbing out of a deep pit that we had lived in all our lives and we are starting to see light...more than the darkness.

We are going from darkness to light!!! I am so happy,and at peace for the first time in my life. Life is great...living is even greater. I used to be a person who had a pulse and my body and mind were controlled by a bunch of alters....I still have a bunch more to get too....but it's getting easier .
Thank you all here on PC that have listened to me and helped me when I was in need of support.And for letting me just sound off!!! and vent!!!

I am very happy for you. Peace of mind is my goal so it is reassuring to hear you have peace of mind. Although you may miss the laughter of the little ones you will never have to hear them cry. They are safe now forever. I wish you well and thanks for sharing something so personal.

for some people it is normal and for others it isnt. only your treatment providers and you can say whether this is normal for you..

for me no, I did not miss their chatter, laughter, cries, screams, or any other behaviors. for me it was a welcome relief to be one whole person again who no longer had voices and such making me feel crazy, anxious, and a whole bunch of acting out that I had no control over.

We have no desire to integrate at all, but i would imagine that if we did, we would miss each other terribly.

Im so happy you are feeling better keep up

Thank you Claritytoo....I am enjoying peace for the first time in my life.Not all my little ones are integrated....there's still some protectors who haven't given permission for their "charges" to come out yet. I still have the 12 year olds and up, (teens),more adult parts, protectors and cult loyal alters.But just getting the little ones that have integrated has taken a load off of their protectors. Keep on keeping on Claritytoo....when the going gets tough the tough get going.(((((hugs to you Claeitytoo)))))

That is great to read. I am so glad that you are getting better. You sound cheery. I hope things keep getting better for you.

YaY (((((((suchislife))))))))))))) YaY

Hey, do you find like my system has found that the more my system comes together the better it is even though I am about a skip, jump, hop and a hum to integrating so, Yet whatever that is healing and great for YOU all makes us happy in turn cause you so deserve it (((((( such is life))))))))

Crew

quote=Crew;2629344]YaY (((((((suchislife))))))))))))) YaY

Hey, do you find like my system has found that the more my system comes together the better it is even though I am about a skip, jump, hop and a hum to integrating so, Yet whatever that is healing and great for YOU all makes us happy in turn cause you so deserve it (((((( such is life))))))))

Crew[/quote] (((((Crew))))) yes the more our System *plays nice* the better it is internally.We had a part who would not sleep because she had to "keep the candle lit and not let the flame go out"....so she never slept and it was very bad on her and the body, so our T suggested that other parts in the System help her by holding the candle so she can sleep....boy the first night she slept she couldn't believe how well she felt....so now every night some one different holds the candle so we can sleep. Not everyone's integrated or ready for it but it's taken a load off the protectors who have integrated some of their little ones. Trust in our T took us awhile....we still test her and give her a hard time. We still have a long way to go....but the more others in the System are seeing how when we all work together it benefits EVERY ONE inside. I don't know if we will completely integrate into the core....she is still a small baby.My T says she will age with the body the more we integrate... One day at a time right? WE LOVE AND RESPECT YOU CREW