Do I have DID?

Hi, I've been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, bi polar, social anxiety, and intermittent explosive disorder... but I'm starting to wonder if I have something else? Like DID or schizophrenia or something.

I'm very confused about my identity, I'm not sure who I am or what I want.. I mean I kind of know, but then sometimes I want different things at different times... but I try to stay focused on what I'm doing now, what I feel like I need and is good for me, goals I've set.. ect. But sometimes I'll react in a way that I think someone else would react.. like say something in the way they would say it and their mannerisms.. ect. But I'll do it as if it was ME saying it and sometimes I don't notice, but I've been catching myself doing a lot lately... and I act like people I find really charming or interesting in some way.. most of the time it's guys I've dated, but not always.... and it's like I act like these people in response to different situations, like sometimes I'll be the "music nerd" and other times.. I'll be "responsible"... it's like I go around and decide to adopt other people traits. It's like some Norman Bates *****!!!

I also have a whole other "delusional world" that's kind of always in the background but I ignore it but all it takes is a trigger and there a certain triggers that make me go psychotic and it's like being in another world where everything is just wrong and I'm so scared and think people want to hurt me. It's like my brain created this whole other delusional world to protect me from rejection/pain.. it made all these associations through experiences.. it's like a chain and my brain has added all these links and it seems like I've avoiding a lot of situations/experiences/people/places because I'm so afraid of triggers and falling into psychosis... I'm afraid to date now, because it seems I go nuts when I get attached (do the black & white, idealization and **** of BPD) and then when I break-up I go psychotic... I'll talk to my ex or someone who reminds me of my ex, I go psychotic. I'm starting to think I'll never be able to love.. I'll never be able to really trust anyone or connect with them... I'm starting to think I'll never be able to be stable enough to have a normal life and I'm just gonna live in fear all the time and will have to go into a group home and I don't want that!!

Have you discussed this with your therapist? Is your therapist familiar with this type of diagnosis? It is important to explore possibilities but it is very important to have an open discussion with your therapist while doing so. I wish you good luck with your therapy.

Im sorry we cant tell you whether you have DID. Doing that is called making a diagnosis and we are not allowed to do that here.

What I can tell you is that what you have posted does fit in with what you have been diagnosed. borderline personality disorder dies carry symptoms of identity issues such as you posted, as does many other mental disorders and physical problems, the mental disorders you posted you are diagnosed with do have the symptoms of being psychotic, delusional,paranoia of thinking people are out to get you and all that other stuff you posted.

DID isnt about being paranoid, delusional, psychotic. or feeling like you dont know who you are and what you want to be type identity issues.

here where I live and work DID is where you have alters that take control of the body and live a completely separate life that is their own job, purpose, reason for being.to show you what I mean Im going to use an example from one of my sexually active alters.

for example I (amanda) would stay home study, I am also a lesbian where as my alter Donna would rather be out partying and would sleep with what ever abusive guy she could. we were two separate identities with in one body with no shared memories, no shared preferences, completely separate lives. its like if you and your worst enemy in school (you know that girl or guy you would love to have slapped, or told to go to heck in school because they were such jerks?) well imagine you and that person that is so different from you that you couldnt stand in high school had to share the same body and you want to stay home, watch that good movie on tv, but this other person in your body pushes you out of the way, and goes to the basketball game, and has sex behind the bleachers, you cant stop this from happening, most times you dont even know its happening until you sort of wake up and instead of watching tv you are behind the bleachers..

thats what being DID ishere where I live and wirk in New York USA, like you have two or more alters constantly taking over control and living out their own lives that is different from what your life is.

heres where you can find more information about what DID is here in the USA..it will bring you to a page that is the new diagnostics that the USA will soon be using but .if you click on the tab that says DSM IV thats the present standard/ diagnostic criteria.

http://www.dsm5.org/ProposedRevision...on.aspx?rid=57

again we cant diagnose you (tell you whether you have DID) for that you will need to contact your own doctors, therapists and psychiatrists that you see for your mental disorders and physical problems.

Unstable sense of self can be a thing of BPD. It can be stronger or weaker.

I don't have BPD or DID, but I have a VERY unstable sense of self. I don't really know what to call it, I wish I had a good word for it and that it would fit in somewhere. In my life I've gone through phases, almost like a teenager trying new things, just that I'm an adult and it goes much deeper. Those past me's live somewhere inside me, but if a trait of them comes out, it immediately gets in conflict with who I am "now", because it feels that this personality should not have that trait.

When I've changed, I've changed preferences in food, music, clothes, activities and also changed beliefs, morals and view of the world.

I had times where these states existed together in time but took turns, but the norm is they stay around for a few years, then something changes. When things change, I change inside how I feel about myself. The feeling of "me" is different. When I'm between identities I feel raw and stripped to the bone in a very unpleasant way. When I'm not in the mood for the identity I am, I feel grumpy and strange. When I'm in a different identity I look down on the others with disgust, like that is so not me! Still when I'm there, it mostly totally feels like me.

Something is quite unusual about me, but no one ever caught that. Maybe it doesn't show so much on the outside?

I know someone who is a bit similar to me and they are diagnosed DDNOS. But they have a reason to be dissociative, I don't.

Yeah, I feel like I have different egos, but I'm still always aware of things and feel like the same person.. it's not like a sudden "snap" and I'm someone else... I do "snap" and go to into a psychotic state, but it's as if the world around me changes more than I change, although I do change slightly in response to the psychosis... but I still remember it.

I also go through different phases, it's usually connected to sexual behavior and relationships.. if I go through a break-up then I'll often times get a haircut or buy new clothes or get into a new hobby/interest.

So can someone say what this is called? I call it unstable sense of self, but that sort of doesn't catch the spirit of it.

no Im sorry but no one here at psych central can tell you what anything is called with in you and your problems. you see theres a rule here that says we can not make a diagnosis of what other members problems are.

to get a diagnosis / find out what this is you will need to contact a medical doctor or therapist or psychiatrist in your off line (not on the computer) location. they are the only ones that can tell you what your problems are and what they are called.

Oh, I wasn't looking for a diagnosis but maybe a psychological term (Like, what is it called when you have "face blindness" = prosopagnosia).

I apologize for not making clear what I meant. I don't use the Internet to diagnose myself.

I understand what you mean, jimrat. Maybe egostates?

there are many psychological terms depending upon other accompanying symptoms like

alters
fragments
ego states
the child with in
hallucination
delusion
psychosis
psychotic episode
parts
littles
conscience
internal critic
dissociation
dissociative state of mind
medication induced
vision
paranormal activity
figment of imagination
creative mind
mania....

only your treatment providers will know the correct term for what is happening to you is based on your location,diagnosis and medical and mental health history.

I think it is best to discuss this with a doctor.

Thanx. I like that one.