[abbynormal]

I tried to join here a while back but got too confused and overwhelmed. This place seems so big. Now I am searching for some kind of help to hold on to. Sounds dumb but my therapist just left on his month long vacation and I can feel my alters crying, screaming, stomping.. I just want to run away. When I thought that the other day my feet ended up being cut with a razor. I never had had any trust with therapist until this one and it is just hard. I am just whining. Any help would be appreciated. Am I being retarded here??? Abby

[kimmydawn]

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welcome back

I know it can feel HUGE and overwhelming. What I did when I first came here is stuck with just a couple of forums until it felt safer to venture out. maybe you can do that? maybe this forum and one other...just for now?

It can be scary and feel all unstable when t's leave for that long, I know. Does he have a backup t for you to contact if you need to? I think that's very important... I know it's difficult, but we understand here and will help in any way that we can.

KD

[Mahali]

Nope sounds totally sane to me. When a person is raised with nobody to trust or lean on and then they find somebody they can trust it is very hard to have them unavailible for a long period of time.

Even though your rational parts say t will be back and vacations are good things the rest is hurting.

Perhaps you can reach out a bit here and get some support to take some of the fear and lonliness away.

[abbynormal]

Thanks.... I will try to reach out here. You are right I have never had anyone in my life that didn't hurt me badly.. and this is hard.

Abby

[wanttoheal]

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Welcome back. I understand how this can be so overwhelming. It's very hard for me to post here, although I'm getting a bit braver. I'm kind of one of those post and run people. As soon as I reveal any info about me, I go into panic mode and lie low for a while.

I'm sorry your T is gone so long, I hope the time will pass quickly for you. This is a great place for support, even if you can't post all the time. I get a lot of support here, even though I am not a big poster.

Take care and I wish you peaceful thoughts.

[Evangelista]

Welcome Abby,

Glad that you are reaching out again here. Hope that you will keep posting and sharing as you can. Take care.

[abbynormal]

Just having a hard day. Feeling very lost and sick like I want to scream. I know my alters are upset...

[Evangelista]

I am so sorry Abby..are you communicating with them yet in your therapy..sometimes asking them whats wrong..letting them be heard can help..I am really sorry you are feeling so bad..please be gentle with yourself...

[January]

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Welcome back. I hope you feel better very soon.

Cheers!

Jan