perp and pizza

I've been abandoned in this house with the dogs and no money
my roommate is helping her daughter at the other house for 4 days now. She hasn't called, i haven't spoken a word outside my head in days. I got hungry and the only person i could think of to call was the father, my perp.
i "paid off" my pizza tab and feel filthy and gross and stupid, and mad and really mad and really stupid and used and used again all for a pizza cuz i don't have any friends or any money around the house.
I sold myself for a pizza
what the hell, where were my protectors, where was my system to smack me upside the head and tell me or come out, and deal with the hunger.
i am betrayed by all, even myself, and selves
the pizza sucked too
-j

Are YOU an adult and if so, who usually does the shopping and buying of all necessities needed in the house? - the roommate? If YES, has she done this type of thing before?

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

.........................................................BTW - WELCOME to PC.

The roommate always has the food stamps card, and she's in charge of all my money. She doesn't get paid for taking care of me, and doesn't have a job. She's done it before; it's just that we don't have much money and she forgets a lot sometimes.

-j

and yeah, i'm the host, the body is 37 years old.