i am clear

One of my alters has drunk too much today and took medication. I feel clear and i have contact with my T. Luckily my T is here for me now on the phone with messages. There is too much medication taken but that is not new to us. I feel 'clear' but also sad. We do not need to go to the emergency room of the hospital now. We need to take a shower. I'm going to do so now I just want to talk and not be alone. I'm not afraid but i am sad. It'll be fine with us, i will take a shower now.

Thanks for reading.

Bloem

I do not want to let go my laptop. I want to connect with people and not feel alone. I'm in good hands, It Will be ok.

sorry that I write this I feel alone

Bloem, you are a beautiful person. You will be ok, and it is really good that you are reminding yourself.
I have recently been working with a group that focuses on how your spirit/energy of you can not be affected by what you experience, say, feel, think. It is beyond anyone else's reach in this world. This means that no matter what has happened to you, what you have done, said, or felt, your spirit is whole, perfect and untouched. I have been clinging to that belief over the last few months. It makes me feel safe, beautiful and whole. I hope that you can feel that there is still a part of you untouched by everything that has happened. I hope this doesn't sound like preaching or rude in anyway, I just wanted to try and help. xo
IJ

((((hug))))

Really happy you're okay. I've been though that before, and it's really scary when you have to deal with repercussions of alters like that.

I'm glad you told your T, and you don't have to go to the ER. Is it possible to have someone stay with you a night or two to watch for any side effects of the alc/med combo and the od?

Stay safe.

Again (((hug))) you're not alone in how you feel.

Thanks for your comments!

It goes well with me i slept long and feel better. Fortunately, I have clear agreements about medication. Because this has happened more often. I get my medication every morning at the pharmacy, and on Friday for the whole weekend. This weekend I have often not taken medication because I did not have to be concentrated (i have ADHD) therefore I had medication for a day over. And that was yesterday taken at once with alcohol. I realized that something was wrong when I was so emotional I then looked in the trash and saw a bottle and that medication was gone. I then contacted my T and asked what to do. I am ashamed that I posted in that state here and want to apologize.

Sorry!

Bloem